R3P2D17 Easter Day Break

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 17 Break
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # none
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 165.6
Today's Wt: 168.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +2.8lbs
R3 Total Loss to Date:

Happy Easter Everyone!!

My break is going better than I thought, I'm reloading which I know is completely off protocol but I really feel that I needed it.  I'm packing on the pounds like never before.  I have a feeling TOM is lurking which is what was causing my cravings and stall.  I've eaten Mexican pastries, Oreos and some Doritos.  Today, if I venture out, will be Carl's Jr. Damn you Carl's Jr. for sending me coupons!!!  I want to try their Southwestern Patty Melt and the coupon is 2 for $5. I've noticed my allergies are at an all time high since pigging out on carbs and refined flour and sugar.  Now I know what the culprit is to my allergies.

 I don't think we're going to do anything at my aunt's house today, we're expecting rain later in the afternoon to evening hours.  We'll just have to wait and see.

R3P2D16V13 Break, Break!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 16 VLCD 13
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # none
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 165.0
Today's Wt: 165.6
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +0.6lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -8.8lbs

I didn't get to blog yesterday because after I got home from work, I took a small nap and had to take a written exam for new employment, possibly new employment.  The test was 3 hours long!!  I arrived at 3:30pm, test began at 4pm and we left at 7pm.  Man I was mentally exhausted.  I arrived home and allowed myself to eat junk food.  I pigged out on some Oreos and my heart began racing as if someone had given me a shot of adrenaline!! Guess I had already cleansed my body of all sugar so those Oreos hit me hard. Well if you noticed I stopped the injections because I was unsure if we were doing anything tomorrow for Easter.  I haven't heard anything from my aunt and I also forgot my cell phone at home today.  I was worried I wouldn't arrived on time today so I rushed out of the house and after about 3 miles I realized I had forgotten it.  Oh well, it's not like I haven't been without a phone before. I'm allowing myself to eat whatever I want for the next 2 days and Monday jump back on the wagon.  Since my losses have stalled, this would be a good time for me to let loose.  Now that I have allowed that for myself, I feel more in control now.  Does that make sense? Now that I have permission to eat whatever I want, my mind says, "No, you'll gain weight eating that!!"

R3P2D14V11 Up & Down, Again & Again

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 14 VLCD 11
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 14
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 164.4
Today's Wt: 165.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN:  +0.6lb
R3 Total Loss to Date:  -9.8 lbs

Ok, I'm just jumping back and forth the same weight which was problem when I was on Round 2.  I feel like I just started but I'm already 2 weeks into this.  I'm going for a very long round this time so hopefully I can stick to it.  I will do 40 injections then switch to sublingual which will probably last for another 30 days.  It's been a bit rough, since I stopped smoking, I now want to snack on my "crackers".  Yesterday I ate 2 hearts of Romaine, a beefsteak tomato and 100gm of tilapia for dinner.  I felt full after the second heart of Romaine but I continued to eat it.  I gave the rest to my rabbit.  I've been drinking green tea and water by what feels like the gallonful and peeing just as much but my weight will only fluctuate up and down by the same 0.6 lb.  Oh well, I'm not stressing about it just wish there was something I could snack on that was easy and wouldn't affect my losses so badly.  Live and learn. 

Work was a bit hectic today, second shift didn't show up until an hour after I was suppose to get off.  I went to Petsmart to stock up on canned dog food because I had awesome coupons and they had it on sale 2 for a dollar. My coupons were for a $1.50 off 10 cans and I had 4 of them since the sale is only until Sunday the 8th.  I used 3 coupons on Monday and now I have 70 cans!!  My dog is going to be eating very well for the next several months.  Maybe I'll find some more coupons.  Well, I think I'm going to go cook my chicken for the next couple of days so I have no excuses for not having my food, now I only have to remember to get it out of the fridge before I leave for work.

R3P2D13V10 Deja Vu Monday

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 13 VLCD 10
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 13
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 165.0
Today's Wt: 164.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.6lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -10.4lbs

I must admit now that last night I did indulge  in draft Michelob Ultra, man it went down smooth.  I thought for sure I'd have a gain because yesterday I could not stop binging on my "crackers".  Before I left for the bowling alley, I did have my 100gm of tilapia fish.  Unfortunately, it didn't help when I got there because other teams were already enjoying chips and salsa.  A member of our team was enjoying a personal pepperoni pizza right in front of me then what he didn't finish he gave to his friend, who was sitting right beside me!!  Man I was so dying, I really wanted to cheat and get some chips and salsa to go and just pig out when I got home.  I don't know what happened to me but I just walked out of there with nothing.  I believe I told myself if I really wanted to cheat, wait till tomorrow and you can drive back to the bowling alley and just get them to go.  Guess that worked because this morning I felt guilty for even thinking about cheating and seeing that small drop just gave me more confidence to keep going.  Today I don't feel much like cheating.  I then wanted to kick myself because I realized that I had nothing to eat for lunch.  I hadn't cooked any chicken or boiled any eggs.  I then remembered that I had some Atkins low carb vanilla shakes so I grabbed one of those and an apple for work.  Now that I'm home, I'm defrosting some chicken and fish.  Luckily Romaine lettuce was on sale the other day so I bought 2 huge heads.  I'm munching on a Romaine heart right now to curb me from eating the whole box of "crackers".  I still have some beautiful beefsteak tomatoes that I bought at Costco.  I ate one the other day with some lemon pepper, Yummo!! I'll have to eat some more tomatoes before they start to rot.  So you can guess what's for dinner.  Fish and tomatoes.

Well, looking at today's weight and Monday's, I don't think I had a real gain just the fact that I had to weigh in at 3:45 yesterday morning may have been a contributing factor.  Today's "false" loss is attributed to the beer.  So I wait till tomorrow.  Cheers everyone, I'm toasting with some green tea!!

Wow! After making my cup o'green tea, I used Now Stevia Extract liquid.  I didn't know it was in an 11% alcohol solution so wow!!  Of course, I used too much and pow, it just hit my taste buds.  It is extremely sweet and even watered down my tea.  Lesson learned.

R3P2D12V9 Bump in the Road

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 12 VLCD 9
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 12
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 164.4
Today's Wt: 165.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +0.6lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -9.8lbs

I was expecting that because I snacked on a few more "crackers" than I should have.  Also having to weigh in at 3:45am today didn't help much either but I will attribute the "gain" because of my early morning weigh in.  I have been super cranky today and in a foul mood.  Today I am really hungry.  I ate my apple at 8am after my coffee, then I ate my chicken around 9am.  I stopped by Wal*Mart and bought some fat free cottage cheese.  When I arrived home, I immediately had to have a teaspoonful.  Then I found my "crackers" and couldn't stop myself.  I also ate 2 Garlic & Parmesan Pretzel Chips. I also munched on a head of Romaine heart just to squelch that ugly hungry feeling.  I finally fell asleep on and off for about an hour.  When I awoke around 3pm, I decided I better eat before I have to head out to the bowling alley.  There is going to be trouble there because of all the yummy food the restaurant sells, plus everyone around me eating because they just got out of work.  Sometimes the people you bowl with just don't understand that you are on a "diet" and they tend to keep shoving food in your face even though you politely decline.  That's why I didn't want to bowl. Oh and the beer but my craving for beer or any alcohol has diminished since January.  I had a few beers on my first day of HCG but they didn't affect me, or I just didn't feel them, but I just didn't crave them. 

I'm drinking green tea now and I hope that helps with my energy for tonight and also my hunger. Once I finish this cup, I will make some black tea, that will waken me up.  I gotta go play with my dog before I leave for the evening and I need to take a shower before.  Oh yeah, I think TOM is right around the corner as well.  The HCG always screws with TOM.

R3P2D11V8 I Amaze Myself

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 11 VLCD 8
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 11
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 165.0
Today's Wt: 164.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.6lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -10.4lbs

Wow, another drop!! I could get used to this.  I'm very happy though because I have lost everything that I regained back from loading so I'm very close to my LIW from Round 2.  Sadly Round 2 wasn't my best but now from reading the threads on Yahoo, my round 2 may not have resulted in a lot of pounds lost but I'm sure there were plenty of inches lost.  Even more sadly, I didn't and haven't taken measurements.  I probably should do that soon to understand what my body is going through while on this protocol.  This time doing the protocol has been somewhat easier since my daughter technically moved out.  She's away at college, so with her gone, there is not much junk food in the house to tempt me.  I do have some guilty pleasures lingering around here like Oreos, Doritos, Fritos, peanut butter and beans, but I have not been tempted to eat any of it.  Okay, wait, the peanut butter commercials get me but I fight the urge to grab a spoonful of the stuff.  I say to myself, it's not worth it just wait it out, and after your done with this round, you can have some.  It will keep in the pantry till then and the craving disappears.

Ugh, I have plenty to do today since I won't have a chance to do much tomorrow.  I was asked to substitute for a bowling member in their league and I have to sell tickets for our Lady Kegler Club.  I haven't seen some of these people in quite some time so let's see if they notice my somewhat new me. I just hate how late we get out of there because Mama needs her beauty rest.

I know I had more to add but while on protocol, I get ADHD and CRS severely.  I must start carrying around a notepad and jotting down my thoughts for these exact moments.

Awesome 15lbs Gone Overnight!!!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 10 VLCD 7
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection #10
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 165.8
Today's Wt: 165.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.8lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -9.8lbs

APRIL FOOL'S!!

I wish that were true.  Ugh why couldn't I just get that 0.2 extra overnight to make it an even 10 pounds gone!  At least I had a drop, I thought for sure I wouldn't have seen anything but a stall this morning.  I did get some good sleep last night except for my bladder asking for relief at 5am and my dog started barking.  I still had to get up somewhat early this morning to water my lawn since the hurricane winds will start up later today.  I did go to our meeting this morning and it went well.  Since we finished early, I was able to stop by Sam's and get all my pet food.  I bought some avocados so I will have to freeze those until I get to Phase 3, bummer!!  I had some evalues to cash in on so that's why the avocados were bought plus some spring mix salad and coffee!!  Man do I need my coffee every morning.  I forgot about the limes but oh well, they would probably dry up before I could use them all anyway.

I learned last night while watching "Preppers" on how to store eggs for at least 9 months without refrigeration.  I think that is awesome since they are on sale this week.  I'll give a few dozen the treatment and test this theory out for myself.  Only thing is I don't have somewhere cool to store them, hmmm.  They still last a few months though.  Also I'm running out of room in my fridge if I continue to purchase more eggs.  I have so much to do today but I am lazy!!!  I have the energy just not the drive.  This seems to be a recurring theme for me.

R3P2D9V6 Any Loss Is A Good Loss

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 9 VLCD 6
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 9
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 166.4
Today's Wt: 165.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.6lbs
R3 Total Loss to Date: -9.0lbs

I didn't think I would lose anything since I'm on day 9.  I thought I would stall since I usually do around this time of the round.  I'm happy I lost something.  I had a shrimp salad from Costco for lunch along with an apple. It was basically some cooked shrimp over some Romaine lettuce with grated Parmesan cheese.  It does come with some dressing but I omitted it. Dinner consisted of "pan fried" chicken, cucumber and grape tomato salad.  I count the tomatoes as my fruit so no apple for this evening.  I took a good nap after I arrived from work.  Yes, today has been pretty boring but it is nice after a hard week of work.

I saw my "man" at work today but he chose not to speak to me.  Better for me since apparently he remembered, this morning, about the incident over a week ago.  I hate that I allowed myself to become his victim and I'm trying to change that but it is proving very difficult. 

I have a meeting tomorrow for our Kegler bowling club but I really don't wanna go.  I must if I want to participate in the upcoming tournament.  We'll see how I feel in the morning.  I will need to get up early to water my poor palm trees because it is suppose to get really windy in the afternoon, fun!!

R3P2D8V5 Shopping Is Dangerous

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 8 VLCD 5
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 8
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 167.4
Today's Wt: 166.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -1.0lb
R3 Total Loss to Date: -8.4lbs

I'm getting much closer to my LIW from Round 2 in roughly 5 days of VLCD and I've lost all that I gained during loading. This makes me very happy.  I was going to call in sick to work today but decided to go ahead and go in.  Big mistake.  I should have stayed home.  Another department was covering for the graveyard shift and what a mess they left, ugh!!  Needless to say, I was able to take a 1/2 day, which meant I got to leave at 9am.  I stopped by Wal*Mart to get some cleaning supplies, then fueled up at Costco, picked up a few things too at Costco.  Then off to Albertson's I went.  They have an awesome sale this week.  Meat, chicken and tilapia fish were all buy one get two free.  Can't beat a deal like that.  The dozen eggs were on sale too for 99 cents.  Oh, and I bought some lottery tickets too.  Worth a shot. After arriving home, finally, to my amazement, there was no room in my fridge or freezer.  I managed to get everything in somewhere so everything is put away now.  Costco is the one that got me though.  I bought some Gala apples, my favorite "crackers", a shrimp salad, seaweed chips, some huge beefsteak tomatoes, pink Himalayan sea salt and some wipes for work.  It sure added up quick.  I still need to stock up on cat and dog food.  That all was just this morning but now I'm home and don't plan on going out again, hopefully.  I have a lot of work to do around the house but don't have the will to do anything.  I have the energy just not the mindset or the will.

R3P2D7V4 Going down!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day  7 VLCD 4
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection #7
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 169.4
Today's Wt: 167.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -2.0lbs
R3 Total Loss to Date: -7.4lbs

Well another nice drop and I didn't take those oil containing supplements.  I know better now.  I'm having trouble falling asleep at night so I struggle to get up at 4am.  I like that HCG seems to give you some energy but it may be the clean eating that helps more than anything.  I did take a nap yesterday but it was worth it.  I didn't take measurements (again) but I can feel the difference already in my clothes and my fingers aren't as pudgy either.  I did a lot of walking today.  I had to go to HR and since I was on that side of town, I stopped by Costco too.  I exchanged some allergy pills and they were kind enough to refund my money, cash!! What's better than that? I spent it right away though because I wanted a different allergy pill.  I bought some organic, gluten-free "crackers" and Romaine lettuce, sorry rabbits, but this lettuce is for me!! I stopped by the bank too but they weren't very helpful with the issue I had.  It didn't hurt to ask though because you just never know.

I saw my "man" today but he didn't confront me about what happened on Saturday, so good.  He tries to avoid me now as to not confront me, I guess.  I just hate that I fell for all his lies and bullshit, just so that he turns around and does it to someone else.  I wish her luck or hope she opens her eyes to his deceit before she gets hurt too.  I only wish that it would turn around and bite him in the ass instead.  Karma isn't my friend right now, so I pray for myself to heal.

R3P2D6V3 New Lesson Learned

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 6 VLCD 3
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 6
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 170.8
Today's Wt: 169.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -1.4lbs
R3 Total Loss to Date: 5.4lbs

Hmmm. I thought I would see another huge drop like I normally do when I start Phase 2 but not last night.  I had beef and tomatoes and an apple for a snack.  Nothing off protocol, however, I did take 2 of my new supplements but they contained oil.  I'm gonna say that was the culprit. The other supplement was in tablet form so that should be okay.  Let's see what tomorrow holds.

I'm still having issues with my "man".  Unfortunately I will have to see him tomorrow unless he leaves work before I do, hopefully that will be the case.  Since I know that he is already seeing someone new, I have a feeling he's going to confront me about it.  Only time will tell.  Till tomorrow.

R3P2D5V2 Nice Drop!!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 5 VLCD 2
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection #5
Starting Weight on 03/26/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 174.8
Today's Wt: 170.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -4.0 lbs
R3 Total Loss to Date: 4.0lbs

Woot, woot! That's what I like to see!! Even though I had a 4am weigh in, it still looks good and feels great!! Let's see what tomorrow holds. I noticed I have to control myself because I am so used to eating snacks of almonds or something protein rich. I caught myself today reaching for the almonds, then I remembered VLCD!! Phew!! I'm still feeling a bit down from something that came to light over the weekend. So I am still trying to deal with that, basically, MEN!! I need to find myself and love myself before I allow him to control my life and win. I need to concentrate on my physical self and mental self. The physical part seems to be the easiest right now. I've dedicated myself to researching JUDDD, Paleo and ice therapy. Also my supplements finally arrived, unfortunately I'm not able to take some of them because they contain some type of oil, darnn!! I'll have to wait 60 days before I can take some of these but what the heck, they were on special so I got them. Now they will just wait for me. By the time this round is over, I will have forgotten what half of them are for, LOL.

Let's see what tomorrow holds for me. More losses, less drama!!!

R3P2D4V1 VLCD finally!!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 4 VLCD 1
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection #4
Starting Weight on 03/25/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt:174.8
Today's Wt: 174.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +/- 0.0
R3 Total Loss to Date:

Woke up this morning to yesterday's weight and after reviewing my journal, I have gained back everything from Round 2. Seems Round 2 was a wash. I hope it comes off easily within the next week, sheesh. Yesterday I polished off some cottage cheese with fruit cocktail, double stuf Oreos, Birthday Cake Oreos, zucchini & yellow squash with cheddar cheese, butter and coconut oil with 3 eggs, popcorn with hot sauce, pretzel M&M's, a large kefir smoothie with strawberries & protein powder. Who knows what else. I felt horrible and this morning I am extremely swollen. I awoke to numb arms and fingers. May the flush begin!!! I know I'm gonna start peeing like crazy in a bit after my morning coffee and supplements kick in.

I'm a bit sad but hopefully it will be gone soon. I think once I start losing all this added weight, I will feel somewhat normal again, physically and emotionally. Of course, this part has to do with a male I was seeing a few months ago but that's another blog!! I found some inspirational quotes on Facebook so I hope those will help me through the next few days. I definitely don't need the depression right now it just messes with my mind.

Ding, Ding, Ding Round 3

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 3
0.25ml (125iu) HCG SQ injection # 3
Starting Weight on 03/25/2012: 174.8
Yesterday's Wt: 172.2
Today's Wt: 174.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +6.2 lbs
R2 Total Loss to Date: ???

Today is my official VLCD 1, obviously I did a good job of loading. I did such a good job of loading that I managed to gain all my weight back that I lost during Round 2!! Friday I purchases some tacos that I knew would be off limits while on protocol and had plenty of Oreos!! Yesterday, I ate Mexican sweet bread, 2 Carl Jr.'s six dollar burgers, another order of tacos, Doritos, Fritos with sour cream. Doesn't look like I ate a lot but I feel like a beached whale.

After mixing my new batch of HCG for this round, I calculated it to be 40 injections worth. I'm hoping after I complete the injections, I can switch to sublingual and continue for another 20 days. I recently applied for our local police department (again) so I hope I make it this time. I psyched myself out the first time around so let's see if I don't self sabotage myself again.

Wish me luck everyone both on my journey through the protocol and through this process of joining the academy.

****UPDATE****

After much debate and realizing I will be doing 40 days, I decided to load an extra day. I feel it will be necessary. So I've polished off a bag of leftover double stuf Oreos and some Birthday Cake Oreos. I had a kefir strawberry smoothie this morning because my grains revived quickly after being shipped in the mail.

Phase 4 Finally!!

Yesterday was my first official day of P4 and I'm happy to report that I have been able to stay within my 2 pound over/under window, whoo hoo!! Today I did indulge in some Mexican food, gorditas with rice and beans. I must admit they were delicious. Dinner was a small steak with a side of creamed spinach mixed with quinoa. I have begun to enjoy quinoa. Ok, I'm getting side tracked. My LIW was 165.8 and I awoke today at 4am, after a huge meal yesterday to a surprising 166.4!! My weight yesterday was 167.2, day before that was 168. Wow, that was a total shocker for me. Yesterday's meal consisted of 2 petite steaks, Mexican squash in butter, quinoa, brussel sprouts in butter sauce and 1/2 an avocado. I didn't feel stuffed, weird huh? Breakfast was a homemade juice/smoothie. I'm sure this is all jumbled but I'm going by memory because I'm horrible at writing things down with my ADHD. I try to behave in my eating during the week, but Saturdays, or Faturdays, as Dr. Oz calls them, I really indulge in Mexican pastries, pizza, anything that I've been craving all week, etc. So on Sundays, I'm not extremely hungry so it is easy for me to do a correction day or just a protein day. Protein days are much easier since I can have some eggs for breakfast and/or lunch then chicken, fish or steak for dinner with P3 safe veggies.

Monday was a very good day for me. I went to the post office to pick up my package which contained what I need to continue with this progression. Then I received a phone call, which I missed for cleaning with my mp3 player on, but they left a message. It was a call stating I had won a $50 gift certificate from a contest I entered back in January. At first I couldn't recall, then I remembered because she stated all she had was my phone number because I had submitted my entry via text. That's when I remembered. I called her back the following morning to give her my information so she could mail it out to me. She made me laugh because she stated she had called several people and they were hesitant to give her their information, so they lost out on their free $50 gift certificate and coupon for a free box of their product. Overall, it has been a good week but at this very moment, I can feel TOM knocking on my door, errrrgh!!!

Let's see what tomorrow holds!!!