Trying Low Carb

BREAK
NO INJECTION
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 161.8
Today's Wt: 161.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.4lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 7.6lb

I seem to be doing okay low carbing it but I'm sneaking in some carbs here and there but not everything I eat is carbs. I did really good at lunch. I had my cabbage soup and chicken breast then someone brought some mini pretzels and shortbread cookies. I had a few handfuls of pretzels and a couple of cookies. When I got home I had bought a rotisserie chicken. I took a nap first, then I ate some chicken before I went bowling. My daughter had eaten some chicken as well but then she got sick. After arriving at the bowling alley, she tells me she's hungry and I have no cash on me. I had to ask a teammate (and co-worker) to buy her something to eat. He was cool and ordered her some chicken tacos. She allowed me to have 1/2 a taco.

Nothing else special happened. Yes, I'm still crushing but not as intensely.

R4P2D12 Will I Ever Complete This Round?

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 12
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # NO INJECTION TODAY
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 162.6
Today's Wt: 161.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.8lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 7.2lbs

Ha, I forgot to post yesterday, oh well. I've been eating freely even thought I hadn't finished my 72 hours until this morning. I'm not doing so bad but with all the food around all the time, I think I'm just gonna try low carbing it for a while. Since Cleochatra has so many wonderful ideas and recipes, I may try and see what happens. I may have to change the title of blog as well, he he!!

Yesterday at bowling my daughter and split a cheeseburger and fries. At least I did not consume the whole thing myself.

R4P2D10 Need Support In Many Ways

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 10
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # NO INJECTION TODAY
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 160.0
Today's Wt: 161.2
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +1.2 lbs
R4 Total Loss to Date: 7.8lbs

I am still very nervous to find out about boy toy's feelings and I still have to wait until tomorrow!!! I really hate being home on the weekends with my daughter because she is always hungry and is always eating which tempts me to do the same exact thing. She prefers it when I'm in P3 because I can eat more variety and she likes that. I really indulged yesterday, I had potato chips (yes my weakness) and 2 Hershey bars and one was smothered in peanut butter. Not to worry, I paid for it this morning, my stomach was so upset that I didn't go to work. (Bad, bad girl!) I just really didn't feel like dealing with people today. I'm also experiencing some pain in my hip joint. It used to be even worse when I was heavier and that's what I had contributed it to but now it's coming back again. It's so bad that when I try to get out of bed, I have to sit at the edge of the bed and try to stand up very slowly. I can barely walk to the bathroom and if I have to sit down, I have to endure more pain. Then it just simply goes away. I used to only feel it when I laid in bed for more that 6-7 hours and last night I was only in bed for 5 or less. I did invest in one of those memory foam pillows designed to nestle between your knees to align your spine. It helps some but if I forget to sleep with it, forget it. It's also awkward sleeping with it because you can't just simply turn over, you remember its there and you have to hold onto it as you turn over.

Well, I'm off to ponder my feelings and decide to go to Wal*Mart again. I forgot a few things but I wrote them down this time and hopefully I don't forget them.

R4P2D9 Still Crushin'

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 9
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 9
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 160.4
Today's Wt: 160.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.4lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 9lbs

I'm still fretting over my crush and sneaking in some sugar free chocolates. They did a number on my stomach ewww!! I'll have to wait until Tuesday to see him and try to confront him sometime this week just to set my mind at ease and figure out what I'm doing and why I'm crushing so bad on him. P2 does this to me, thanks HCG!!

I went to the store this morning and bought some cabbage, cukes and cauliflower as well as some chicken. There are P2 friendly foods around me now so I should have no excuse. Since its still cloudy and a high percent chance of rain, I planted the rest of my lantanas in the backyard and a cactus my mother game some time ago. It was a good distraction for about an hour. I'm going to make some chicken cabbage soup for dinner and hopefully have some left over for lunch tomorrow.

R4P2D8 Confused & Emotional

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 8
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 8
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 160.4
Today's Wt: 160.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +/-0.0lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 8.6lbs

I've already deviated again. I'm really emotional right now. I'm falling again for another boy toy at work and I don't know what to do. Every time I talk to him I'm unsure how he feels. I just don't want what happened with other boy toy to happen again. Also, every time he's around me, he seems to want to ask me something but he shuts down and walks away. He gave me cell phone number and I text him last week. I told him yesterday to let me know if it bothered him if I text him or called him on his cell, just to let me know. He asked why I would say such a thing and I just told him I didn't want him to get in trouble at home. I snuck a peak at his paycheck and his tax status is married. This is causing me to emotionally eat because I don't know what to do with my feelings for him. I know he's married but whether its happily or not, I don't know. He really caught my attention one day cuz I was all grumpy and not wanting to talk to anyone and he made it a point to say hi to me and throw my name in. I just thought it was so weird for him to do that. Then I had to go to court for a ticket I received and he just happened to have court the same day so I hitched a ride with him. It was a good 25 to the courthouse and 25 miles back to the station, so we had plenty of time to talk. He was really sweet but I told myself that that's just the type of guy he is. I finally noticed this week that he has green eyes!! Anyway, so that's why I'm all emotional and confused and deviating. I want to lose weight so he may be more attracted to me but I need to get a hold of my feelings because I shouldn't be doing this for him but for myself. My emotions have got the best of me right now and I just don't know what to do.

It has been raining nonstop since about 2am last night thanks to Dolly!!! Thanks Dolly for compounding the problem of this dreary day and my crazy emotional roller coaster. I love the rain but with my emotions all over the map, it isn't good today.

R4P2D7 Creature of Habit Part II

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 7
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 7
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 160.8
Today's Wt: 160.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -0.4lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 8.6 lbs

I don't know what got into me yesterday but I deviated again. Then it dawned on me that today was jean day at work.

When I arrived home from work I attacked a canister of Fritos. I only meant to eat a few and before I knew it, I had eaten the entire contents of the canister. Well, I skipped dinner because i was so full from the Fritos. I went to bed early because I didn't take a nap.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/milk & Splenda, black coffee
L: 6oz. albacore tuna, drained w/red pepper flakes
D: 1 6oz. canister of Fritos

R4P2D6 Creature of Habit

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 6
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 6
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 161.8
Today's Wt: 160.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -1.0lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 8.2lbs

Apparently I'm a creature of habit because I have already began deviating. Not in a major way but still deviating. I was having lunch and I could not resist the addition of the Fritos. For me, tuna and Fritos go hand in hand. I have eaten that way for soooo long that I can't eat tuna without it.

After work, I got home and took a nap. I awoke and started cooking some chicken. I made additional chicken for my lunch today but my daughter decided to eat it so I'm having tuna again today, unless I can convince someone to buy me a salad. I'm broke till tomorrow, payday.

Bowling started out great yesterday and then I just started to fizzle toward the end, shame on me.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/milk & Splenda, black coffee
L: 6oz. albacore tuna, red pepper flakes and Fritos
D: chicken breast and 1 jalapeno

R4P2D5 So Far So Good

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 5
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 5
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 164.2
Today's Wt: 161.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -2.4 lbs
R4 Total Loss to Date: -7.2 lbs

Oh, the losses on the first week are so addicting that you want them to continue throughout the protocol at that same rate. Then the frustration kicks in when you stall for a day or two. I'm doing good so far but I was feeling a bit hungry at the bowling alley so I just drank more water. We won two games so that was good. No epiphanies yet.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 1/2 cake donut, coffee w/half & half, Splenda, black coffee
L: chicken and green beans
D: chicken and 1 cup Healthy Harvest Peach applesauce with cinnamon and stevia

R4P2D4 On My Way (Again)

Round 4 Phase 2 Day # 4
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 4
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 169.0
Today's Wt: 164.2
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -4.8 lbs
R4 Total Loss to Date: -4.8lbs

Wow, I kinda wish I had gotten up a little later just to see five pounds lost but I'll take it. I know it was a lot of water because I was going to the ladies room nonstop. We'll just have to wait and see.

I have bowling tonight so maybe now my fingers will fit in the ball again, he he!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 1 Krispy Kreme chocolate glazed donut, coffee w/half & half & Splenda, black coffee
L: 6 oz. albacore tuna in water
D: chicken with sliced cukes, water

R4P2D3 I'M BACK!!

Round 4 Phase 2 Day #3
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection #3
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 169.0
Yesterday's Wt: 167.2
Today's Wt: 169.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +1.8 lbs

Yes, I'm back!! I started my injections on Saturday and loading. Surprisingly, yesterday I did not feel hungry and I had to force down my hot dog and smoked sausage as well as some chile con queso with Doritos. Sounds like a broken record right? So today is my first VLCD and I'm already deviating but I can count it as a 3rd day of loading right? Excuses, excuses, I know. I've been enjoying my bowling but I can tell I'm retaining lots of water and my fingers are either just swollen or getting fat because I can't get them in the ball but that will all change this week, right? My daughter started school on Thursday so I've been dealing with that as well. I haven't had any epiphanies yet but we all know that's coming soon. I cut my own hair yesterday and colored it so it feels like a new beginning all the way around. I gave myself the injection in my thigh yesterday and it didn't hurt but I hit a vein and my thigh swole up. I thought it would go away but by the afternoon you could see the huge lump it left. I put some ice on it and that helped tremendously. I don't have a bandage to wrap it with and that would help to add pressure but I don't have one.

Listen to me just rambling on, I shall update some more tomorrow!!

Boring Saturday

Round 4 Break III
No Injection
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 164.2
Yesterday's Wt: 159.0
Today's Wt: 160.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +1.8lb

I don't have much to say today only that I really pigged out yesterday with Doritos and chile con queso. My daughter was upset with me because I left without her to go on base. Now, she knew we had to meet at the bowling alley so we could all ride together to get on base since I don't have a pass. The guy that took my measurements for drilling my ball was very detailed which surprised me, but he sounded very knowledgeable. My ball should be ready Tuesday at around 3pm. Afterwards, I was taken back to my car and I headed to Target. I bought myself a body pillow and cover to see if that will alleviate my hip pain when I oversleep. This monstrous pillow is 4 feet long and takes up a lot of room but it felt comfortable laying with it.

I rode my bike yesterday and this morning. The weather here is awesome today. It has been overcast all morning and we're expecting some thunderstorms. I didn't water or wash my car so we probably won't get any rain right?

I missed the Joan Jett concert yesterday at the Downtown Street Festival. I had to choose between feeding my daughter and myself versus seeing the rock goddess legend live on stage. Food won that battle.

Round 4 Break III

Round 4 Break III
No Injection
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 164.2
Yesterday's Wt: 159.0
Today's Wt: 159.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +/-0.0lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 5.2lb

I really went to town yesterday. Of course, someone was late again yesterday and I jokingly said, "Don't forget the donuts!". Seriously, I was joking. He came back with a dozen donuts and they were just made. I don't believe I've had that fresh of a donut and man, oh man, was it delish!!! It was so soft and warm like a dreamy pillow. I had two!! This of course after I ate a small bag of cappuccino chocolate chip cookies. I left work early because I was just so tired. I went to Sam's to put gas then headed to Wal*Mart. I bought a foot pump for my bike as well as a lock. Turns out the foot pump was less than it stated, whoo hoo!! I headed to Harbor Freights to get some knick knacks that were on sale. Blades for all my utility knives and some epoxy glue. They always have great sales and usually have everything in stock. It had been overcast all morning and I was anxious to take my bike out. By the time I got home, the sun came out and it was already 11am. I was still going to take my bike out since I was able to inflate the tires but then I saw "them" walking, Jehovah's witnesses!! I had to close my garage without taking my bike out. I watched a bit of my soap and fell asleep on the sofa for about an hour. I went to my bed and crashed out for another hour and a half. I could feel the heat so I got up to turn the air on. My daughter finally got up and I was watching tv. I had taken out some steaks to defrost. After a while she decided to go to her friend's house and I was all alone. I changed the sheets on my bed and attempted to fix that damn bi fold door to my laundry room. Let's just say, I will need to replace to door. After changing my sheets I had to get in the shower because I just felt so sticky and sweaty. It's been really humid but no rain.

This morning I got up early and went to Albertson's and spent too much. Then I stopped by Wal*Mart for a few other things. I got home and put everything away and took my bike out. I rode for about a 1/2 hour. Now I sit here boring everyone with my adventures. I'm going to go on base with my teammate to get my new ball drilled. He said we could drop it off and he would pick it up for me on Tuesday. Works for me. I wonder if he's going to pay for it as well.

I'm off to go make some breakfast for myself. I'm going to incorporate more P3 foods today because I think since my old batch fizzled early this week and I only took 2 injections of the new batch, it wasn't enough to make a significant impact on my HCG levels in my system. Seeing what all I ate yesterday and no real gain only proves what I stated above.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half, Splenda, black coffee, choco chips cookies, 2 heavenly fresh donuts
L: Fritos, Doritos and salsa
D: grilled chuck steak w/creamy horseradish sauce

I really thought I had eaten more, maybe I just can't remember right now, he he!! I did feel guilty though because of all the carbs I had.

Becca, I'm not upset at all, you just basically said what I was thinking already. I respect your criticism, good or bad, and it is only to help me and I really appreciate that. I don't want to blame all of this on the fact that my daughter is on vacation from school but it is a small part of the problem. Her being on vacation and staying up late is also having a impact on my sleep because I hear her and I worry that she's trying to sneak out or something. I'm just paranoid as a parent should be. She wouldn't do such a thing but the thought does run across my mind. I've already warned her about the curfew laws and how I am not going to be going to court for stuff like that.

R4P2D14 Uncle, Uncle!!

Round 4 Phase 2 Day 14 VLCD 12
No Injection
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 164.2
Yesterday's Wt: 160.4
Today's Wt: 159.0
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -1.4lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 5.2lbs

Ms. Becca, I read your comment before beginning my post and everything you said, I had already thought about yesterday and last night. I have decided that I am going to stop injections once again and resume after the 4th of July. That will give me a week to think about what I'm doing. My daughter will be returning to school on the 17th of July and that may be a plus for me as well.

I would like to get back to 155 by following the P3 guidelines before resuming injections. We will just have to wait and see what happens.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: small bag of raspberry shortbread cookies, black coffee, coffee w/half & half, Splenda
L: grilled chicken breast and steamed cauliflower
D: Fritos, tostadas w/salsa

R4P2D13 What Is Wrong With Me?

Round 4 Phase 2 Day 13 VLCD 11
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 13
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 164.2
Yesterday's Wt: 159.8
Today's Wt: 160.4
Today's LOSS/GAIN: +0.6lb
R4 Total Loss to Date: 3.8lbs

I did really good during the day and after getting to the bowling alley, it was downhill from there. I'm surprised at such a small gain for everything that I ate plus when I got home from work I weighed myself and I weighed 159.6. Go figure. Since I ate at the bowling alley, my game was a bit better than the day before. The guy with the cheesy lines was bowling next to us and he started with me again. He asked if I had done my background investigation on him and I told him that I had. I told him flat out that he basically got around. Of course, he denied everything and that they are all liars. He left me alone the rest of the night.

My teammate Louie will be taking me on base Saturday to get my ball drilled. He told me that he was going to invite me to Rudy's BBQ before getting to the bowling alley but he was having problems with his vehicle's air conditioner. Why would he taunt me like this? I think someone upstairs was watching over me because in the morning I was ready to buy a burrito and deviate early and that he wasn't able to take us to get BBQ but when the chips and salsa arrived, my angel and will power left. The burrito girls never showed up so no burrito for me.

Sorry, I'm just rambling because I'm tired and I don't want to be on the internet for very long at work. Fourth of July is just around the corner and I don't know what to do. Tomorrow is our annual cookout here at the station but it starts at 3pm and I get off at 2pm. I really don't feel like driving back to the station once I get home. I would like to bring my daughter but I really don't feel like it. We'll see.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half, Splenda, black coffee
L: 1 drained can of Albacore tuna, a squirt of mustard & pepper, small bag of Fritos
D: grilled chicken and steamed cauliflower
S: chips & salsa w/cheese and beans, ice cream cone from McDonald's

Becca, yes, being broke is not helping my situation. I did find a can of tuna so that's what I had for lunch. Tonight it will have to be eggs until payday tomorrow.

B, yes, and the bowling alley has some awesome food and nothing P2 friendly!!!

R4P2D12 Need To Straighten Up

Round 4 Phase 2 Day 12 VLCD 10
1.0ml (161.2iu) HCG IM injection # 12
Starting Weight on 08.18.07: 197lbs
R3 LIW: 161.4
Starting R4 Wt: 164.2
Yesterday's Wt: 161.2
Today's Wt: 159.8
Today's LOSS/GAIN: -1.4 lbs
R4 Total Loss to Date: 4.4 lbs

Yesterday my food choices were very poor. I was going to try and do a P2 steak day but on my lunch break, people were eating all around me. Usually on my break, there's no one and yesterday, there was someone sitting right next to me eating Subway. I couldn't see or smell it but I knew it was there. I ended up giving in to the vending machine. After work I got home and fell asleep. I must have slept too much because at bowling, I was just awful!! I couldn't even make my average. Good news is, my new ball came in and my teammate will take me on base this Saturday, to get it drilled. He suggested that we allow his son and my daughter to go to the movies while we go on base.

During the morning, I picked up my car from the shop. It just needed some touch ups and a few little things fixed. I had one of the officers drop me off so I could pick it up. I had called my father so we could go but he started with lame excuses so that's why I had the officer take me.

Anyway, I feel really lethargic this morning, probably from lack of food. I remembered to take some chicken out to defrost for dinner.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half, Splenda, black coffee
L: 1 small bag of potato chips, 1 small bag of Cheez Its, 3 petite danishes
D: 8oz. Lite N Fit yogurt

Becca, I hope I explained about the car in today's post. (Sorry) Let's see if this new batch will do the trick but without money until Friday, I am limited on protein choices (the freezer is actually empty of my protein sources).