Monday, March 31, 2008

R3P2D60 Call Me The Deviator!

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 60
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #23
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 161.6
Today's Wt: 161.4
0.2 lbs LOST from yesterday
0.6 lbs under LIW

I wasn't expecting to see anything especially since its Monday, I'm back at work and I have to weigh in so early. I can only imagine what number I would see if I could weigh in later. I've started drinking coffee since early this morning so I won't be able to get an accurate reading if I was able to weigh myself later. That's okay, because that means tomorrow I will see a difference, right?

I did deviate a bit yesterday, but it just wouldn't be me if I hadn't. My daughter wanted fast food so I obliged so she could get it out of her system. She couldn't decide at first, I suggested Wendy's but she decided on Taco Bell. I noticed there was nothing P2 friendly on either Taco Bell's or KFC's menu. So I opted for a $.99 soft taco. My daughter was buying so I said what the hell. We got home and I only ate the innards of that taco and gave the flour tortilla to the birds. It didn't have much filling so I didn't feel that I cheated that badly. We were actually suppose to go to my mother's house but I decided against it because I did not feel like driving the distance. I've been trying to find someone to record my VHS tapes to DVD because I just love these workouts. They are the original Buns of Steel. They really help tone you up but unfortunately they are on VHS. I'm afraid to keep watching them and then the tape bust or something. I don't know why I'm so worried about it, I have a gazillion exercise DVD's. I have The Firm, Buns of Steel on DVD but they are not the same workouts, Slim in 6, Gym In A Box, and countless others.

I started sorting clothes yesterday and found some XXL tshirts that I have never worn. I plan on giving the clothes to my mother and I hope she doesn't get offended that I am giving them to her. I'd just hate to see these tshirts thrown away or something. There were a pair of cute shorts as well.

I was able to watch Paul McKenna's show last night, there were actually two episodes back to back. They are replaying them on Wednesday or Thursday, so watch if you can. It was pretty much what his videos on his website entailed but they spoke with actual people on the show. It is really helping me as well. I know it may not work for everyone but I really feel it is helping me. His Golden Rules are sure going to come in handy during my P3. I only have about 3 injections left so we'll see how it goes.

Okay, I'm just rambling on now but I want to know where everybody is???!!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 2-16oz. coffees w/milk & Splenda
L: 2 eggs scrambled with mushroom, cooked in coconut oil, 1/3 avocado and salsa
S: innards of a Taco Bell spicy chicken soft taco, 6 oz. yogurt w/2 tsp. milled flaxseed, 1 SF toffee square
D: 2 tilapia fillets fried in coconut oil, 1 SF truffle, 2 cups wulong tea

B, how the heck are ya? I usually don't have problems but I knew Easter lunch was still lingering but I think the magnesium tablets and the flaxseed are really helping. I know flaxseed and yogurt are not on the protocol but I really need it for my own peace of mind. Yes, the technique of tapping is strange but if you continue doing it, it will work. You have to repeat it several times. If you get a chance check out his website or the show and he explains in detail what to do. The link is on the right side. It's the same Callahan technique. I scanned a funny but I forgot to post it so I'll do that later. Love ya and take care.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

R3P2D59 Prepare Yourself To Be Grossed Out

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 59
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #22
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 163.0
Today's Wt: 161.6
1.4 lbs LOST from yesterday
0.4 lbs under LIW

All I can say is WOW!! I have had such a struggle with this round and now that I'm nearing the end, I start dropping again which brings up the issue of "should I mix another batch?" Nah, I'll probably take a break for a week or two and just jump right back in again. I noticed that when I take too long of breaks, I can not get myself under control again. Plus summer is right around the corner!!! Yes, I know I have been branded the poster child of what NOT to do while on this protocol. That's fine by me. I think someone, me, should be testing the limits since the original protocol was so limited on information and many of us are pretty much winging it. Many with great results I might add. I was checking my calendar and even thought my LIW from Round 2 was 168.0, I started this round at 178.?? Round 2 almost is non existent. So that means that so far this round, starting in January, I have lost 17 lbs. Pretty sad but that's just me, the Deviator!!

WARNING: This part is TMI!!
Another reason I may have a had such a good drop is because I felt consty all week. Thursday I felt myself battling to go poo. I felt that I had to go but there was no cooperation. I finally squeezed out a few pebbles and that was it. Well, yesterday, my body decided to stop combating and released and released. My first trip, of course, as I'm sitting there trying to get it all out, the phone rings and all I can think is, if its important, they'll leave a message!! After I was done, I checked and it was my mom, she didn't leave a message. Later, my daughter and I were watching the Bucket List, and Jack Nicholson says, when you get older, never trust a fart!!! The funny thing is, right after he said that, I told my daughter, I needed to heed his advice and went to the bathroom, and went again. I had been feeling my gut churning as we watched the movie but all it took was for him to say that and I was gone. Now, the last couple of days, I have been enjoying some light yogurt along with some milled flaxseed and I think that is what helped me tremendously as well as some of the magnesium tablets I took both days.

All in all, I am starting to feel great. I watched Paul McKenna's videos yesterday from his website, and some of his techniques really helped me last night. I wasn't planning on staying up late but my daughter insisted that we watch movies. I started doing the tapping technique and my daughter asked rudely, "What are you doing?!!" I looked at her and just said, the tapping technique. She gave me a look and sarcastically said, "What is THAT?!!" I explained to her that it was something to help stop cravings. She just yelled at me, "Just eat already!!" All this while she's shoveling Girl Scout cookies in HER mouth. I explained to her that I wasn't hungry, I just wanted to eat to do something and the tapping helps to stop that. I also explained to her the other video about when you think you want something so bad, think about something you hate to eat and that you have to eat it. Now as your eating this nasty item, sprinkle some hair on it. It makes it more gross when you think about sprinkling pubic hair on it. Then after you sprinkle all this hair on it, empty the contents of a full spittoon on it and you have to eat it!! Then the plate seems to be getting bigger and more hair and snot are being placed on it. If that doesn't kill your craving or your thoughts about the food you want to eat, then start tapping again until the desire is gone. Let me tell you, that really did it for me, especially when I switched to pubic hairs, ewww!! So anyway, she got tired and it was a bit after midnight and we both went to bed. I got up at 7am and weighed. I really thought I would be the same from yesterday but no, there was a good loss. I went to Wal*Mart to buy the newspaper and get some fresh garlic that was on sale. At first the cashier started to argue with me because I had taken a competitor's ad and she began to explain that they no longer honored the 5 for a dollar, etc., only by the pound items. I thought okay, I won't take them then. She asked if it was on sale somewhere else and I told her I wasn't sure. She found another store that had them for 79 cents a pound. I said okay, let's see what it comes out to. It turned out it was actually cheaper by the pound than the 5 for a dollar. I think I ended up paying 59 cents for the 5 heads. Works for me and she calmed down. I came home and realized I need to water my palm trees and lantanas in the front. I watered my rose bushes yesterday, they're in the backyard. My lantanas in the back don't seem to be coming up so I wonder if the winter did them in. I need to plant my garlic as well so I don't have to fight at the store anymore. I thought about taking a walk this morning but procrastinated and now its late and I've lost the motivation.

Happy Sunday to all, it sure was lonely here yesterday. Was there some HCG convention that I wasn't aware of nor invited to?

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 2-16oz. coffee w/milk and Splenda
L: eggbeaters (1 c.?) with mushrooms cooked in coconut oil
S: 6oz. NSA peach yogurt w/1 tbls. of milled flaxseed (my daughter didn't like this yogurt so I ate it)
D: 1 chicken breast w/slice of Mont Jack cheese, cooked in coconut oil
S: a few bites of ground beef and green beans (daughter's dinner)

I did eat a couple of tostadas because I made some homemade salsa and need to check its flavor. Excuses, excuses right? At least I didn't eat the whole bag, right?

CB, thanks for checking in on me. Glad you enjoyed my post, I sure had a lot to say, didn't I? I enjoy reading your progress and I must say, you are doing awesome!! Luv ya and take care!!

Saturday, March 29, 2008

R3P2D58 It's Catching Up To Me Now

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 58
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #21
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 163.4
Today's Wt: 163.0
0.4 lbs LOST from yesterday
1.0 lbs over LIW

I weighed in at 6:30 this morning and I was the same weight from yesterday. I went to Albertson's to get some yogurt that was on sale and of course, they were all out. It was on sale last week as well and they were out. I picked up some South Beach Living frozen dinners cuz they are so handy for me to eat at work instead of going out. They are less expensive than a combo and I had coupons!! So I paid about $1.50 per dinner, cool huh? From there I went to Wal*Mart to price match the yogurts but they don't carry the Dannon Lite N Fit singles, only the large containers. I was trying to find some muffin top pans so I can make "oopsie rolls" from Cleo's website but it looks like I'll have to go to Target for these. I bought some spring form pans, a microwave rice cooker and lots of cookies!! I don't know what got into me but I bought some of those 100 calorie pack cookies, Wal*Mart has their own now in fudge striped shortbread, and some Murray's sugar free cookies in mint chocolate and mock Oreos. I don't feel like eating them right now but I figured if I decide to cheat, I will cheat with a 100 calorie pack. Easier said that done, right? I picked up some more frozen dinners for my daughter since she doesn't like my "diet" food. Whatever!! Sadly, my Wal*Mart only carries 2 South Beach Living dinners, Kung Pao chicken and Garlic Herb chicken. The Kung Pao is good for P3 because it does have peanuts, but I didn't buy any just the Garlic Herb Chicken and priced matched to boot. So, I got home and had to put everything away and I made a pit stop in my bedroom cause there was a funky smell coming from there. I put a couple of bags on the bed and looked in my bathroom and one of the cats left a pebbly present for me directly in front of the toilet. I knew immediately who it was and went looking for him. He knew he was in trouble because he saw me and went to hide. As I chase him through the living room, I find another present in there but it was only puke, arrgh!! So I quickly put all the frozen stuff away and then head to the bathroom to clean that mess then hurry and clean up the mess in the living room. I finally got around to weighing myself and giving myself the injection and had a loss of 0.4, yeah!! I did indulge a bit at dinner yesterday but I just wouldn't be me if I hadn't. All the treats and little delights are catching up to me now so I will need to behave because I don't have many injections left to finish this vial. I've been doing pretty good at resisting some temptations. For unknown reasons, there has been cake at work on different days and I did NOT partake in any of it. Some was left in the breakroom while I was eating my lunch but I ignored it. See, I can behave once in a while, haa!!

My daughter decided yesterday that she wanted to weigh herself because she's been eating like crazy during her spring break (another reason I'm broke). She couldn't figure out my scale so she asked me to help her. I showed her how it worked and she got on. That little brat weighed in at 97.6 lbs!!! She became upset because she's gained a whole pound in the last 2 weeks. My daughter is 15 YO and is only 4 foot 11 inches so don't freak out. I told her not to worry about it since she goes back to school next week and will drop it as soon as she starts her workouts again. Sheesh, if I only had that problem, right?

If those of you on P3 have a chance, please check out Cleo's link for some extremely P3 friendly recipes and tutorials. She is very creative with veggies and lo or no carb dishes. I have also been watching "I Can Make You Thin" on TLC. Paul McKenna has some very useful information which has been helping me as well. He has four golden rules and I really try and follow number 3 the most. That is "Eat Consciously". Basically it is to enjoy your food as you chew it, chew it at least 20 times and you have to put your fork and knife down as you do this. It has really helped me because I don't serve myself as much food and I can actually feel full after eating the smaller portion. Mr. McKenna also has very useful videos on his site. His show is on TLC and there are 2 shows tomorrow. So check him out if you can or if your curious. My curiosity is what got me to watch the replay of his show.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 16 oz. coffee w/milk & Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: Wendy's Texas double cheeseburger w/o top bun and extra mustard, water, 2 starbursts
S: 1 biscuit w/pat of real butter, 1 6oz. yogurt w/tbl. of milled flaxseed
D: chicken breast cooked in coconut oil, covered w/Mont Jack cheese, sauteed mushrooms and green peppers

Dinner was delicious and very filling. I know it wasn't protocol friendly but it was satisfying. I haven't figured out how to plug all this into Fitday so I have no idea how many calories I ate yesterday.

Biz, it catching up to me now, luckily I only have a few injections left then I'll have to enter your P3 boot camp. By the way, I am not able to view it when I go to the forum, I'm signed in but it says I don't have sufficient privileges or something to that effect. Will you let me know what is going on?? Oh yeah, I like Marlene's diet so I try and emulate her but I forget sometimes that she's only 19 and it works for her, not for my 37 YO body, haaa!

B, how the heck are ya? I've been lurking at your blog as well and I don't get to comment sometime so don't feel bad since I do the same, haa!! Yes, those treats are catching up to me now!! Have a great weekend yourself!!

Becca, ha, I knew someone would catch that!! I just was disappointed myself for allowing myself to do that but now I feel it gave me the okay to continue that and that's not how I should be thinking. Don't be hating!! When I restart P3, I'm going to be in the same boat of fluctuations as I always have when I get to P3.

Friday, March 28, 2008

R3P2D57 I'm Just As Confused As Everyone Else

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 57
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #20
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 164.6
Today's Wt: 163.4
1.2 lbs LOST from yesterday
1.4 lbs over LIW

I don't mean to confuse anybody but I am using up the last of my HCG. Technically I should be in P3 because of the Easter holiday but jumped back into P2 to finish the last of my solution and to get back down to LIW. It seems to be working for me for now. We'll all have to wait and see!!

I was going to lie today and say I had forgotten to weigh myself etc., because of everything that I ate yesterday. I was certain there was going to be a huge gain and I was going to try and fool myself as well as you guys. I was pigging out yesterday after I got home from work then I realized, "what the hell am I doing, I want to wear my jeans tomorrow, now you've really screwed up!!!" I went to bed a bit late and almost didn't hear the alarm this morning cuz I had turned down the volume last night when I was messing with the clock. My guardian angel was watching over me and woke me!! So I hurry and get out of bed, pee, run to the kitchen to make my cup o'joe, then step on the dreaded scale. I actually had to step off and weigh myself again and was amazed. After I got home my daughter was hungry and she kept eating cereal cuz the milk is going to expire very soon. Then she tried laying a guilt trip on me by saying that I hadn't made her anything to eat. So I asked her if she wanted me to bake her some biscuits that she could snack on. She agreed. Once those sucker came out of the oven, I could not resist. I ate only one. Then the Oreos called my name, double stuffed I may add. That's when it hit me about the jeans!!! So here's my menu for yesterday and I shall not repeat it, haaa!! Who am I kidding?!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12oz. coffee w/milk & Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: Wendy's chicken Caesar salad dry w/croutons, Wendy's Texas Double Cheeseburger w/o top bun and extra mustard
D: eggbeaters (1 c.) w/2 sliced mushrooms and green pepper cooked in coconut oil, 1 biscuit and about 5 double stuffed Oreos, 2 cups wulong tea

I posted my menu earlier this morning then later I realized that I had also eaten butter lover's popcorn as well for dinner. My daughter had made some while waiting for the biscuits to bake and she left me some, not very much, about a handful, and I ate it greedily!!

Becca, yes, once I get the title, it will be out of my life and hopefully the ex-tenants will give up and not take me to court!! Yes, those little sucker were most excellent if I do say so myself and yes I should wait for P4, but you are taking to the poster child of what NOT to do on this protocol!!

Biz, I was a bit shocked that I did have a loss then another this morning, Amazing!! I'm sure it will catch up to me soon enough, thanks for checking in on me!!

Jennay, are you trying to beat me out for the poster child?!! Not really, I think you are doing amazing, you're working out and I'm sure you feel great, a bit sore, but still great!! We'll try and have some wine this weekend okay?!!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

R3P2D56 Where Am I?

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 56
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #19
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 165.4
Today's Wt: 164.6
0.8 lbs LOST from yesterday
2.6 lbs over LIW

My first VLCD day didn't turn out so well. I did follow protocol at lunch but when I got home, I didn't do so good. When I got home I started making mini pizzas for my daughter. I should have taken a picture because they turned out very well. I used biscuits for the dough, spaghetti sauce, mozzarella cheese, pepperoni, green peppers and mushrooms. I baked them for about 20 minutes. My daughter didn't say much but I think she enjoyed them. I ended up eating two of them. They were only about 3 inches in diameter and they were very tasty. I don't feel guilty eating them because they were so small so it felt like I had only eaten about what a huge slice of pizza would have been. After the second one I felt full, not stuffed. So I am amazed that I even had a drop this morning, even with the early morning weigh in. Can you tell this really bothers me? What can I do? I'll just deal with it on a daily basis, no biggie!!

I only have about 7 injections left then I can go back to P3. Sorry for all the confusion but that's just me.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/cream and Half & Half with Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: canned tuna in water, drained mixed w/yellow mustard & black pepper, 1 red apple
D: eggbeaters(1 c.) w/mushroom and a bit of green pepper
S: 2 mini pizzas, 1 cup wulong tea

Biz, well I tried to go straight into VLCD but slipped there at dinner. Only a few injections to go!!

Jennay, yes, that's me, CONFUSED!! I took a break from injections for the Easter holiday, but since my steak day didn't work, I thought I'd try to finish my HCG and hopefully get back down. No, I haven't finished reading it, daughter wants me to spend every free moment with her even though she doesn't want me home. Kids!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

R3P2D55 Not Sure What I'm Doin'

Round 3 Phase 2 Day 55
1ml HCG (166.6 iu) Injection #18
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 165.0
Today's Wt: 165.4
0.4 lbs GAIN from yesterday
3.4 lbs over LIW

I took an injection this morning to see if it will help me get back down to LIW. The modified steak day I did the other day resulted in staying the same weight. The injection I did this morning may just be psychological but I needed it. I will eat approximately 500 cals today to see if it will get me back down. Of course, I already screwed up because I used cream in my coffee this morning but here at work, it will be black. I really hate these early morning weigh ins but what am I to do? I can't weigh myself naked here at work (don't have the body yet, haa!!)

Yesterday, I got the payment mailed off to the mobile home mortgage company!! I went to the bank to deposit the check and then purchased a cashier's check. I got lucky and found a teeny tiny post office near my home. I guess not too many people know about it because there was hardly anybody in there. It runs out of a storage company but it had all the workings of a real post office even the rude cashiers to boot!!! I was relieved once it was gone, just hope it gets there in time since I paid for priority shipping and delivery confirmation!! I should have gotten signature confirmation as well but those girls were starting to work my nerves and I just wanted to get outta there!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half and Splenda, coffee with liquid coffeemate, 1 yeast roll (here's the culprit) S: a handful of mixed nuts
L: South Beach Living Garlic Herb chicken with green beans almondine
D: 1 thick cut pork chop, 1 avocado, 3 green onions and salsa
S: macadamia nuts and pork rinds w/hot sauce

Miz Biz, how the heck are ya?!! I did start P3 because of the Easter holiday but I only have a few injections left in the vial, must not waste HCG!! Maintaining can be so difficult!! It is wonderful to be back home isn't it?!!

Regina, I have to weigh in early because I have to be at work at 5am and I can't weigh myself at work because I usually start drinking coffee as I'm getting ready for work and after I get here. So my numbers would still be off. I like the weekends though, I can weigh in at 8am and see dramatic results. I do feel bad for him only because he's elderly and wants something to do, I just hope he doesn't forget that I had paid him already and expects me to pay him every time he sees me, etc.

Jennay, how the heck are ya?!! Yes, its finally sold but thanks to these tenants being behind on the lot rent as well, they took it from my cut!! Yes, stepmonster had become worse in the last few months and I am sick of it. I have spoken to my father about her being two faced but he just doesn't see it, etc.!! Yes, it felt great that someone other than coworkers noticed!! The steak day didn't work for me but I think it's just that I have to weigh in so early!!

Marlene, I don't drink anything before I weigh in, I make sure I pee, walk around the house, get my coffee and I don't take a sip until after weigh in so I can get a somewhat accurate reading. I think its just the time that I have to weigh in that makes it difficult but that just the way it has to be for me. C'est la vie!!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

R3P3D4 Back to Work!!

Round 3 Phase 3 Day 04
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 164.0
Today's Wt: 165.0
1.0 lbs GAIN from yesterday
3.0 lbs over LIW

I don't like having to weigh myself so early because I don't feel it is an accurate reading. I forgot to bring my scale with me so I could weigh myself later this morning. I did a modified steak day yesterday. I was running around in the early afternoon. I had to pick up some items from a freecycler and go to the grocery store. I got home to put everything away and this little old man was trimming my palm trees. I had explained to him that I was not interested in him working on my palm trees simply because I could not afford to pay him. I was very honest with him and he said I could pay him in payments. I felt bad for him because I know he wants something to do so he's not bored at home and what not but I flat out told him I could not pay him but he insisted. So he shows up yesterday and just starts working on them. I ate around one because I knew I had an appointment about the mobile home at 3:30. I drove over to my father's house and stepmonster picked us up. We went and signed paperwork and they gave me a check so I can send the payoff. The only problem now is that it isn't enough. Since she paid the property taxes and the back rent owed on the lot, she took it out of my cut. Now I'm scrambling to find the difference of about $300.00 which I need to send overnight so I can pay it off by the end of the month, errrgh!! I called and asked my mom but my sister had already called her to ask her for money so she could pay her mortgage, errrrrrgh!!! Granted my sister makes more money than I do but she has 4 kids she needs to support. So this is my dilemma today. I wasn't able to ask my father because I know stepmonster will say they don't have the money or she'll want me to pay them back with high interest. Can you tell we don't get along?

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half and Splenda
L: brisket, an avocado and a couple of green onions
S: pork rinds w/hot sauce and a few macadamia nuts, 2 cups wulong tea

Marlene, yes, I did manage to control myself so I got to taste everything moderately. It is very difficult to maintain or at least look like I'm maintaining because of the early morning weigh ins, arrrgh!!

Monday, March 24, 2008

R3P3D3 Post Easter Recovery

Round 3 Phase 3 Day 03
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 163.6
Today's Wt: 164.0
0.4 lbs GAIN from yesterday
2.0 lbs over LIW

I must admit I did partake in some good, starchy food yesterday. Hey, it was Easter and I was with family so I don't mind the gain. I will admit that I only had one serving of food and didn't go for a second plate. I am very proud of myself because before, I would get seconds and thirds to the point where I felt overstuffed but continued to eat. I will have to do a modified steak day today and I also played hooky from work. I'm trying to get together with a freecycler to pick up some items but we just haven't been able to work something out since it was a holiday weekend. Anyway, I am going to weigh myself later this morning and use that weight. My weight at 5am was 165.2 lbs.

I've decided to stay on P3 since I defrosted most of my cheeses and bought too much cauliflower. I hate to waste HCG but I think I need a break. I have been off and on P2 since the middle of January, along with a few interruptions but I think I've had enough. I didn't realize how many holidays would interfere or that I allowed to interfere, during this P2. I really didn't think we would do anything for Easter but we did. I wanted to get to the 150's before this round ended but it just didn't happen for me this time. I'll stay on P3 until TOM comes and goes later this month or the beginning of next month. I don't want to take too long of a break since summer is right around the corner!!

I'm supposed to meet with the company that is buying the mobile home from me, later today so I can sign some papers.

My mom is so sweet, she gave me some money so I can buy some groceries and she even gave me a gift certificate that she said was for my birthday in January. She bought my daughter a digital camera (God help us) and a gift certificate as well for her birthday, last Thursday.

Back to yesterday, everyone seemed to enjoy the pina colada cake and I myself had two pieces!! It was very delicious and you couldn't even taste the rum. I thought I had put too much but apparently it wasn't enough. I was helping my aunt in the kitchen and she finally commented, "hey you've lost a lot of weight, what are you doing?" I was so happy but knew better than to tell her about the injections so I told her I was dieting and exercising. She asked if I went to the gym and I lied again and said yes, that we have a gym at work. She just said that was nice of work and began asking about my jeans. I went ahead and told her that I got them at GW since I was hoping to lose some more and didn't want to spend a lot of money on jeans just to not be able to wear them after a while. My aunt has worked in doctor's offices for all of her career and she would die if I told her about the HCG. She would get all negative about it and begin to ask about long term effects, etc., so to avoid that I said what I said. Again, I was very happy that someone in my family, finally noticed. She told me that my cousin has finally set a date for her wedding which will be next year. Her bachelorette party will be in Vegas in April of next year. I told my daughter after we got home, that that was my new motivation to lose more weight and I have a whole year to do it in. Also, my 20th high school reunion will be next year as well, so more motivation!!

I shall update some more later in the day.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: steak & mushroom omelet cooked in coconut oil, coffee w/half & half and Splenda
L: brisket, potato salad, Ranch style beans, fresh broccoli & cukes w/dressing, 1 dinner roll with butter, water, two small pieces of pina colada cake and coffee
S: tostadas w/salsa

CB, awwwwe, I wish I could have read your long comment, dang wireless!! Thanks for the encouraging words and for checking in on me. I am trying to enjoy the wine but I can not believe that one small glass makes me so tipsy!!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

R3P3D2 Easter Sunday

Round 3 Phase 3 Day 02
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 163.2
Today's Wt: 163.6
0.4 lbs GAIN from yesterday
1.6 lbs over LIW

I had a lot to say yesterday so today's post will be short. I'm currently baking the cake so I can fulfill my aunt's request for the cake. I'm not decorating it special or anything just her request of a pina colada cake. I spoke to my mother yesterday and explained to her what was going on with the ex-tenants and also my financial situation. I can always count on my mom to help but I need to stop depending on her. She's going to give me some money so I can buy groceries. I'm broke because I paid my mortgage as well as the mortgage for the mobile home. Tomorrow I have an appointment to sign it over to that other company and they will give me a check so I can pay it off. The other reason I'm broke is because my daughter is on spring break and she will eat anything and everything!!

I know I'm going to blow it today because my aunt makes really good food and there is always a lot of starchy food and my cake won't help matters. The frosting is about the only P3 friendly item, its the cake itself that is going to do me in!! My daughter is still begging for her own birthday cake as well, errgh!! (Mmmmmm, I can smell the cake baking right now and smells wonderful!!!)

Yesterday's Menu:
B: coffee w/half & half and Splenda, steak mushroom omelet with a bit of gorgonzola cheese
S: Lite & Fit vanilla yogurt with a tablespoon of milled flaxseed
L: 4 sausage links (my daughter couldn't finish them), macadamia nuts, pork rinds w/hot sauce
D: homemade shrimp and broccoli alfredo (no pasta), 1 Bud Light

Marlene, as Regina said, I'm the poster child of what NOT to do while on this protocol, haa!! I'm trying to be more like you and enjoy staying under 500 cals, but it obviously doesn't work for me. Remember, do as I say not as I do! Hee hee!!!

Regina, yes that's me, the poster child for bad behavior!! Yes, there are no more chips in the house and since I'm broke there will be no buying of more!! I hope my nightmare is over soon so I can concentrate on getting back to losing weight on P2. Yes, I am still undecided, I know I have a few more injections left in my vial so I'm still up in the air as far as restarting injections tomorrow for the weeks worth that's left or just stay on P3 for 3 weeks. Decisions, decisions!!


Saturday, March 22, 2008

R3P3D1 No Steak Day Today!!!

Round 3 Phase 3 Day 01
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 164.0
Today's Wt: 163.2
0.8 lbs LOST

I didn't so good yesterday either but I didn't have any chips!! I did have a donut early yesterday morning. The unwritten policy at work is if you're going to be late, you have to bring donuts. Obviously someone was late yesterday so I indulged and had one, only one!! Later, the commander's secretary calls me and says she wants me to go to her office because she was going to be nice to me. I walked in and she had just opened a new canister of party mixed nuts and my favorite were at the very top and she said I could take as many as I wanted. I love brazil nuts and there were at least 8 huge ones sitting right there on top. I grabbed all of them and went on my merry way. Someone was quick to exclaim, hey those aren't on your diet. I went on to explain that my diet had gone out the window since Wednesday. I shared one with the officer that was working with me. I later indulged in some tostadas with salsa, another weakness. I was eating so much because we were so slow, I mean no one was coming in. I started thinking that people probably thought we were closed for the holy holiday since the county offices were closed for St. Patrick's and Good Friday. I'm working for the wrong government!! Anyway, so I enjoyed not working yesterday and earning a fulls day pay!! I had thought about taking a half day but realized I need to save my time just in case these people decide to take me to court. Most of the officers that I have talked to said I was in the right to do what I did and the only thing I screwed up on was that I didn't send a certified letter. I explained that the house was abandoned and I hadn't been paid for 3 months now so that's why I removed it from the lot. They told me that that was what I had to tell the judge and that all the contact numbers I had for them were no good as well as if I did send the letter, I was going to have to send it to the address where the house was abandoned, etc. They all said that would help my case. Not to mention the fact that they were subletting the home without my permission which was a complete violation of our contract. So I have everything working for me so far and I'm trying not to let it get to me but it is hard sometimes. I had a strange dream last night that I had moved the home in front of my mother's house in the street and these ex-tenants just moved in again. What a nightmare!! Anyway, so when I left work, I went by this grocery store because they had mayo on sale again. With their coupon you could get it for $1.49 and its the good stuff not off label, its Kraft Mayo in the huge mouth jar. I got some poblano chiles as well so I can stuff them, I forgot the broccoli though (69 cents a lb). That place was packed and I was getting aggravated. I wanted to do some more grocery shopping but everywhere was packed. I still needed to get stuff to make the pina colada cake for tomorrow, so I got up early this morning and went to Albertson's. I got some Betty Crocker warm delights MINI chocolate raspberry decadence. These were on sale and bit more pricier than the regular size but this way I can still indulge but with not such a big piece of cake. I bought some more South Beach Living personal pizzas, they were still on sale and I had coupons!!! When I checked out, they doubled my coupons, FRICKIN' AWESOME!!!! So I ended up paying about $1.50 for each pizza. I drove to Sam's to get gas since I will have to drive to my aunt's house some 20 miles away tomorrow (so far, huh) and at least I'll be gassed up for the work week. Since it was after 7am already, I went into Sam's and bought some avocados and half & half. I wanted to buy some EAS protein shake mix and the price has gone up since I last looked at it last month, so I skipped it. I checked out and didn't realize the price of the avocados had gone up as well. This royally sucks, everything's going up but the pay!! I now drove to Wal*Mart to get some more items. I bought some cauliflower so I can try Cleo's cauliflower crust and mock bread sticks. I got two huge bunches with my competitor's ad for $1.69 each. As I was cruising the aisles looking to items, I saw they had a ricer!! I have been wanting one of these for-like-ever!!! I thought how perfect since I was going to try the cauliflower crust, this will come in extremely handy!! So I'm home now and my pesky neighbors are having a garage sale. I was being nosey and overheard another neighbor talking to them and he asked if they were selling the house. I know for a fact they are renting. The neighbor explains to them that they bought a house and are moving. I was jumping up and down!!!! Now to see who moves in next, ugh!! I miss the bachelor guys that were renting before them. There were three of them and they were the most quietest bunch of guys I have ever known. They had friends over every weekend but you never heard them!!! They had parties but you didn't hear them. I was elated!!! I guess the landlord jacked up their rent for the next 6 months so they moved, then the terror moved in!!

Well, I'm off to start my cleaning and baking for tomorrow. I know many bloggers will be MIA for the weekend, hope everyone has a great time!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 1 Krispy Kreme donut, 7 Brazil nuts, 12 oz. coffee w/half & half & Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: tostadas w/salsa, Smart Ones Angel Hair pasta w/zucchini, yellow squash, spinach marinara sauce
D: London Broil w/a glass of cabernet, 1 NSA fudge bar

Becca, thanks for the advice, I'll have to check my provider to see if they can do that, but I noticed that they call from different numbers as well!! I'm trying not to let it get to me but since I've never had to deal with something like this, I let it get to me even though people tell me I am in the right. Just keep sending those good vibes, please!!!

Dawn, yes I'll have to check into that blocked number deal. I got up this morning as was legal so not steak day, just concentrating on protein and veggies!!!

Friday, March 21, 2008

R3P2D54 48 Hrs. Done

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 54
No Injection
R3 LIW: 162.0 03.19.08
Yesterday's Wt: 163.4
Today's Wt: 164.0
0.6 lbs Gained

Wow, looks like I'll have to do a steak day on my first day of P3 or at least a protein day, that sounds more appetizing. I was planning on taking just a short break to get through the Easter holiday, but I may go a week or just restart the injections on Monday. I have a week's worth of injections left and if I have to mix a new batch, I will have to go another 23 days. I have this weekend to ponder the idea. These tenants will not stop calling me so I may have to file a report for telephone harassment against them. They said they wanted to take me to court and that is fine by me. Now if I could just stop thinking about it, I would be more relaxed. I was stress eating again yesterday so I did very badly.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/half & half & Splenda, 12 oz. black coffee, 1 small slice of tres leches cake, a brownie, 1 mini donut and 3 dime sized coconut cookies
L: Lean Cuisine spa classic steak tips and portobello mushrooms with broccoli
D: chips with hot sauce and 1 glass of Cabernet

Hey Lili, yes that queso gets me every time, I'm making some this weekend since I'll be on P3!!

Monica, yes, her being 15 has become a challenge but she's being cool because she's sees how stressed I am about these ex-tenants. I'm laughing cuz I'm going to have to start P3 with a protein or steak day, haa!!

Becca, I'm hoping I don't mess it up too bad, but I was stuck this week at the same weight. Sometimes it helps me to go up a bit so that I can start going down again. It's probably just mental but it helps me think that way. Thanks for the well wishes, I hope its over soon too!!

Diane eats the elephant, thanks for stopping by, I just caught your comment from a previous post, yes the donuts get me everytime!! Yes, Cleo is doing awesome and she is very brave for posting her pics.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

R3P2D53 Break Time!!!

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 53
No Injection
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.0
Today's Wt: 163.4
1.4 lbs Gained

Yes, I indulged in some more comfort food today. At work they had an apartment managers meeting and they always have food and the leftovers are left for us. Their theme was sandwiches but I went for my weakness, chips and queso. I got one big plate of Doritos and lots of queso. Then when I was leaving, a volunteer gave me a burrito and I didn't have to heart to tell him no. So I got home and ate that. It was chile colorado, with pork and potatoes in a red chile sauce. I was done for the day. I expected a gain so I'm not sweating it, only the upset tenants that keep calling.

Today is my daughter's 15th birthday!!! My sister called me yesterday because she was freaking out at the fact that my daughter was going to be 15. Her daughter's birthday was the 18th and she is now 6. At first I thought my daughter had sent her a nasty email or something but she's just freaking out that my daughter is 15. Too funny!! My daughter has to babysit tonight so I get to be alone this evening and she gets to earn some money.

I stopped my injections today because my aunt called yesterday to say we would be having Easter lunch at her home on Sunday. I'm glad she called me in advance, she usually waits till the day before to tell us. I'm not sure what is on the menu but I know its going to be a lot of starch. She asked me to make my famous pina colada cake, so that is my contribution. I'm going to sport my jeans that day, let's see if anyone notices my weight loss cuz they sure didn't notice at Christmas. Of course, I was wearing some baggy warm-ups that day.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix (last of it) & Splenda, 2-12 oz. black coffee
L: South Beach Living Personal supreme pizza on Harvest Wheat crust
S: Doritos with chile con queso and 1 chile colorado burrito
D: 1 cup wulong tea

Monica, thanks for checking in on me, tonight I will have a glass of wine myself as well as tomorrow and Saturday, etc., hehe!! I really appreciate all the good vibes!!!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

R2P2D52 Save The Drama Fo' Yo' Mama Part II

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 52
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #17
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.0
Today's Wt: 162.0
0.0 lbs LOST (No Gain, even better)

Well, still the same weight today. No biggy.

I got a call from the company to tell me they were going to move the mobile home yesterday rather than today. Better for both of us so it wouldn't be left alone longer than it needed to be. So later I get a call stating that the trucker is having problems with the "tenant", the one that is not supposed to be there and the landowner showed up making a scene as well. The land owner was upset because she was owed rent as well so she was not allowing the trucker to move the home. The trucker, poor guy, paid the back rent so he could move the home. It was a lot more dramatic than I can describe right now. I was reviewing the contract and it clearly states on there that they are not to sublet without my written permission so another plus for me should we go to court. I received a voicemail this morning from the original tenants asking me to call them but I'll just let it go to court. I don't feel like arguing with them anymore.

After work and all the drama, I stopped and picked up some wine, 5 bottles to be exact but I didn't get to pop one open. I got a bottle of Merlot, Shiraz, Cabernet, chardonnay and Pinot. Since my daughter is going to be babysitting in the evenings beginning tomorrow, that will be my opportunity to have a glass. I went to bed at 7:00pm

I behaved somewhat with the protocol, I needed some comfort food to relax me from all the recent stress. I behaved when I got home too, I didn't have any SF chocolate or NSA fudge bars.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix & Splenda, 2-12 oz. black coffee
L: South Beach Living personal pepperoni pizza on Harvest Wheat crust
D: homemade chicken Caesar salad with dijon ACV dressing, 1 c. wulong tea

Becca, thanks for stopping by, I know my blog isn't much about the protocol but more about the recent drama. My daughter has been pretty understanding the last few days because of all this drama so that's good. Again, thanks for checking up on me!!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

R3P2D51 Save the Drama Fo' Yo Mamma!!

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 51
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #16
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.0
Today's Wt: 162.0
0.0 lbs LOST (No Gain, even better)

So the drama begins. I got a call from the company that is willing to purchase the mobile home from me and she wanted to know what I had decided. I explained to her that I was still awaiting a call from the property owner to advise them of the situation. She asked if it was okay to move it and set an appointment to have it moved on Wednesday, that is pretty darn quick. I went by to check on the mobile home after work and saw people moving in, I thought WTF!! I spoke to the woman and she said she had signed a contract with someone to rent the home for six months, again WTF!! I explained to her that the home was mine and that no one has contacted me regarding payments or anything and if she could contact whoever it was she signed with to give me a call. She was a bit upset, not at me, but at the situation and I did apologize for the fact that she's caught in the middle of it. I called the company and explained what was going on and she said it didn't matter, she was still going to move it with or without them in it. I thought, "Okay!!". I got home and made dinner and later I get a phone call from my absent renters/buyers, mad as hell because I'm taking the home away. I explained that I hadn't received payment now for 3 months and I hadn't heard from them, so what was I suppose to think, they were going to keep paying? He kept repeating the same thing over and over and I finally got fed up with it and told him if he wanted to settle this in court, we would and hung up. I called my father to apprise him of the situation and he didn't sound too happy but is anxious to get rid of the mobile home as well. The absent renter/buyer continued to call me but I just sent his phone calls to voicemail. So the battle begins. God helped me in my situation but he's not making it easy though. I really need that bottle of wine now. I am starting to stress eat, just to have something to chomp on to relieve the stress, so another reason for the stall.

I really hate the day after a holiday when alcohol is usually involved. I mean since I have to drive so early in the morning to work, I always end up seeing some moron whose driving intoxicated or has wrecked their vehicle because they are stupid. It scares me to drive you just never know who's driving to work or driving incapacitated back home etc. I've seen some pretty strange things driving to work in the wee hours of the morn', but I made it work today, pheeeew!!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix & Spenda, 2-12 oz. black coffee w/1 blueberry cake donut
L: South Beach Living Garlic & Herb Chicken w/green beans almondine, 4 starbursts
D: 1 NSA fudge bar, 1 SF toffee square, 1 tilapia fillet fried in coconut oil, 1 c. wulong tea

Jennay, yes, those blogs have some amazing recipes. That story was one for the books, or at least my book. I wasn't having any problems using to coconut oil last week so I think its the mindless eating of the Starbursts thats getting me. These winds are driving me nuts!!! I need that bottle of wine today, tomorrow and the rest of the week or at least until this mobile home drama is over and it doesn't look like it will be soon either, pray for me!!!

Monday, March 17, 2008

R3P2D50 St. Smactrick's Day

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 50
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #15
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.0
Today's Wt: 162.0
0.0 lbs LOST

Another stalled day or just the fact that I had to weigh in soooo early this morning. I got up late. Around midnight last night I heard my daughter walking around and heard a swishing type sound as she walked. I thought she had been dressed and getting ready to sneak out of the house or something but it was just my imagination running wild. She's been trying to clean her room and if you have teenagers, you know how messy that can be. I'm just afraid she is going to get it all cleaned up and decide to sneak out. I told her about a story that one of the officers told her and expressed that I thought it was a good idea. The officer responded to a call of a domestic dispute and when he arrived it was a mother arguing with her daughter. Mother explained to the officer that her daughter was out of control and not listening to her. Mom stated that her daughter was sneaking out of the window at night to hang out with friends and then she wouldn't get up and get ready for school because she was so tired. Mom didn't know what to do with her anymore so she asked the officer if it was okay to slap her, spank her etc. The officer explained to mom that it is okay to discipline your child within reason and that was her right as a parent. A week later, the same officer responded to the same address for the same reason. Mom was at wit's end and explained that her daughter was still sneaking out and she couldn't get her out of bed. So mom, if front of the officer, got a pair of scissors and cut her daughter's hair and didn't do a very good job either. That sure woke up the daughter and mom proceeded to tell her that if she continued to sneak out, she would have to go out looking like that. The officer was a bit shocked and there was nothing he could do. Let's just say, the daughter began to behave herself. So I plan on doing the same thing if I ever catch my daughter sneaking out. Let's just hope she remembers this story.

Yesterday, I just kicked back most of the day. My daughter apparently caught a cold on Saturday and I thought it was just allergies because the wind had started to kick up and hasn't stopped. She's was a bit miserable so I drugged her and she slept most of the day!!! Later we watched a new episode of the "Whitest Kids U'Know", and we were just cracking up. I must say she was a bit moody every time she awoke and I was afraid, very afraid, plus the poor thing got her period on Saturday as well, double whammy!!!! After watching that show, she was better. I must say it is a funny show but very raunchy!!

Oh, I did go to Wal*Mart again yesterday morning. My daughter had awoke me at 6am cause she had to go to the bathroom and I figured I had to get up and go. I also went to Albertson's. I wanted some wine that Wal*Mart supposedly had on sale but I didn't find it and I couldn't buy till noon anyway, so I may make a trip there this afternoon. My daughter has been bugging me for pizza and I refuse to buy it especially since I'm broke this week, had to pay the mortgage. As I was placing and rearranging items in the freezer, I found the french bread pizzas that I bought her last time. I brought it to her attention and she said she hadn't seen them. So I pointed them out to her. I bought some biscuits and I will probably make her some individual pizzas; let's just she if she's going to like them. Albertson's was out of the Blue Bunny personal ice creams, which was good for me but the also had box of fudge bars on sale for $1.00. I bought two boxes for my daughter and I got a box of No Sugar Added Fudge Bars (6) for me which were $2.99, yikes!!! They also had some South Beach Living pizzas on sale so I got a couple for me!!! I just have to remember, if I eat that for lunch, I can only have protein for dinner.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 2-16 oz. coffees w/Mocha Mix and Splenda
L: London Broil and eggbeaters (1/2 c.??) omelet cooked in coconut oil, 2 NSA fudge bars
D: 200 gm of chicken breast seasoned with Citrus Grill and cooked in coconut oil

Jennay, how the hell are ya? Gotten over your hangover yet? Yes, I just discovered that comment comment from another blog and had to try it and it worked. Yes, you noticed my semi smooth legs eh? I had my daughter take the picture with my cell phone. Guess I'll have to return the dress and get a smaller size, shucks. I so want to leave work right now!!! Yes, I hope those 35 lbs. stay gone forever!!!! Glad you enjoyed those drinks for me, I only had one, boo hoo!! Hey check out Big Daddy D's blog, there are more recipes that are P3 friendly and from his blog, there are more links to other lo carbers, I think they're a big help. There are recipes there that I would have never dreamed up myself so check them out!!!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

R3P2D49 It's Lonely Here

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 49
No Injection
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.0
Today's Wt: 162.0
0.0 lbs LOST

Everyone seems to be out having a good time this weekend and I'm happy for everyone!!! It's lonely here in Bloggerville, Protocoland!!

I'm stalled now but no worries, I really feel inches coming off. The roll on my back is diminishing more and my arms look smaller even though I took measurements, they are still the same, go figure.

Didn't do much yesterday except tell my daughter that her room and bathroom needed to be cleaned this weekend and she's actually working at it. She still needs to learn to "ask" permission to go anywhere. She has a really bad habit of just telling me she's going somewhere and then having the nerve to ask for a ride, ha!! So we had an argument, this actually all took place on Friday not yesterday but yesterday she was cleaning her rooms.

I got up early this morning and went grocery shopping. I bought a bit too much so I had a hell of time trying to get everything in the freezer. I freeze almost everything. I have walnuts, almonds, pecans, flour, sweet potatoes, cheese, etc., you name it, its probably in my freezer. I still haven't picked up the freezer that I bought from my co-worker. I need to clean out the garage since that's probably the only place to put it now. I'm not sure how tall it is so if I can manage it, I can rearrange my kitchen and get it in there. I am a clutterholic and trying really hard to get over that. I have been going through my magazines and cutting out the recipes and such and placing them in a portfolio type notebook. The one that I found has about 8 pockets so I can separate recipes in that one notebook.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 2-16 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix and Splenda
L: eggbeaters (3/4 c.?) London Broil, mushrooms, onion and jalapeno omelet cooked in coconut oil
D: chicken breast w/Citrus Grill seasoning fried in coconut oil, a bit o'broccoli, 1 Michelob Ultra

Saturday, March 15, 2008

R3P2D48 Is This Week Over Yet?

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 48
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #14
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.2
Today's Wt: 162.0
0.2 lbs LOST

YEA!!! Today marks the official day that I have lost exactly 35 lbs!!! Whoo Hoo!!! I got up late cause I was so tired from all the drama this week. Sadly I awoke at the time my alarm goes off (3:00am) but the alarm didn't go off, I just naturally woke up, pathetic!!! So I went back to sleep and awoke again at 6:50 and realized that it was later than I wanted because I wanted to go to the grocery store before everyone else gets there. I got up and went to the bathroom, emptied my bladder and weighed myself with my socks and undies on and I weighed 162.6. I said huh, a gain!! So I went and laid in bed to get motivated and fell back asleep, I woke up again and weighed again with my socks and undies on and weighed 162.2 just like yesterday. I put my "jeans" on and went to Wal*Mart before it got too busy and bought the newspaper and my Woman's World weekly magazine. I came home and got completely naked and got on the scale. It said 161.2!! I thought wow, I only went out for 20 minutes and lost a pound? Amazing. I coudn't believe it so I got on again, it said 162.0. WTF!! I picked it up and swept underneath it cause somehow all this cat litter was underneath it and I placed it back in its spot and proceeded to weigh again, 162.0, fine, I'll stick to that number, not a problem since it will officially be 35 lbs gone!!! I'm sure I weighed a bit more when I started but since I didn't want to fork out the dough for a digital scale on my first round, that's the number I got. I remember when I got my new scale, I got on and it weighed me a bit more than the old scale so I had a fit!!!

Yesterday was an extremely stressful day for me and I was moodiest bitch at work. At one point it felt like 10 people wanted something from me at once. The phones were ringing off the hook, detectives needed miranda cards cuz they couldn't find any, someone was ringing the bell at the window, and the commander's secretary came wanting certain stats like yesterday!!! I was about to scream!!! So now I'm trying to get these numbers cuz the chief's office is asking for them (I think they have secretaries that can look this up for them????) and as I'm trying to get these numbers, the commander calls me directly and is asking me how long it's going to take me. I'm thinking, "I could get these numbers a lot faster if you weren't taking up my time bothering me on the phone!!!!!", right?? So I told him just give me a couple of minutes and I will give them to your secretary or I can call you directly with them. So as I'm trying to get these numbers a sargeant comes and starts poking me on my side and that just annoyed the shit outta me!!! So I get the numbers and run to the secretary to give them to her and on my way over there, another sargeant starts hitting me with papers and I am about to scream!!! Later I went and apologized to the secretary and explained to her that it wasn't her that I was upset at and explained how everyone was just touching and annoying me!!! She understood, I think. Later after lunch, she came by and said that the commander wanted her to thank me for getting those numbers for him, sheesh, give me a raise instead is what I was thinking. Ah, speaking of raise, my anniversary is Monday and that means my evaluation is due, eeeekkkk!!! This is when I start to stress because I can only think of all the negative things that I have done and that that is what they are going to be looking at and I won't get a raise. I will have been working there 5 years, its time to look for something else.

So, yesterday I decided to go to JC Penney's for their sweet sale and wanted to buy this dress that I thought was really cute. I bought in a size 8 to motivate me. I found some petite jeans on clearance and their boot cut in size 12!! I also found some slacks so I can wear them to work but I'll have to wear my boots with them because even though they are petite, they are still a bit long. So I unwrapped the candy bar for the the coupon and I got one for 20% off, whoo hoo!!! I came home and tried everything on again, even the dress and it fit!! Okay, so where's my motivation? So now I have to decide if I should return the dress and get a smaller size or just return it.

My daughter came home and I realized that it is the beginning of her spring break and the beginning of her trying my patience for the next two whole weeks. I got her a babysitting job but that's only for 3 days this week. She didn't want to do it since it will be on her birthday, the 20th, that she will have to sit. I explained to her that she would be earning easy money that she didn't have and she can buy what she wants with it. So she decided that she would do it. The only problem is she won't be getting home till after midnight when I'm already in bed. I don't have a problem with her babysitting since she's doing for a fellow police officer who's sitter skipped out on her suddenly. It will only be for 3 days is what I have to keep telling myself and 2 of those days will be Friday and Saturday. I get the house in the evening to myself and she will only be a couple of blocks away, literally!!! I've only recently found out that many of the officers that I work with, live very close by. So I guess I better keep my yard looking spiffy so they don't go around telling everyone what an eyesore I have!! I have desert landscaping so I don't have to worry too much and they really don't care!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix & Splenda, 2-12 oz. black coffee, snuck in a couple of Starburst and 2 Hershey's mini chocolates because of the stress
L: South Beach Living Garlic Herb Chicken with green beans almondine, 1 red apple
D: 150 gms of London Broil w/sliced fresh jalapeno, 1 c. wulong tea

Regina, I only have 3 more years of raising this child but she is really trying me. I'm still trying to get numbers for her. Thanks for the reminder on the importance of eating, I think I taught myself a lesson, since I was so moody, I don't think I'll try that again.

Jennay, sorry, I was at work when trying to reply to comments and I kept getting interrupted. You're funny, RED high hells?!!! I guess you were pretty upset that I didn't comment on that. I haven't worn my red platform heels yet cuz I need to break them in and work is not the place to do that!! Course knowing these guys, they see red and they just lose their minds, especially red heels, right? Tell Ed to "simma down now!! Yes, TGIF**kingF is what I meant because of the funky mood I was in!! Take care and have a great time where every you guys are going out this weekend and have one for me too!!! Check out Big Daddy D's link for more P3 friendly recipes!!

Dawn, no porn, sorry, but I'll post the picture of the back of my thighs for you?!! j/k I know, you think that after you get them potty trained it's smooth sailing, well it is until they reach 10 and they begin to test your patience and its downhill from there. I try explaining to her that I am not her friend, I am her mother so she needs to do as I say. I was just so tired and I knew I'd probably fall asleep right after I ate and that's exactly what happened, oh well, lesson learned.

Monica, I titled my post yesterday "TGIFF" because that's how I felt yesterday, see Jennay's reply for more explanation. Hey, enjoy those macadamian nuts, mine are staring at me from the fridge everyday, wondering when is their day!! I just look at them and say, "Your day is coming soon, not to worry!!" Muahaa aaahaaa!! Hey, check out Big Daddy's D and Cleo's blogs, their links are posted on my sidebar, they both have great lo carb recipes that I think will be okay for P3. And from their blogs, there are more links to other lo carbers out there.

Friday, March 14, 2008


Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 47
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #13
R2 LIW: 168.2 12/14/07
Yesterday's Wt: 162.6
Today's Wt: 162.2
0.4 lbs LOST

I am so glad it is Friday, this week has had way too much drama and stress for me. I just need to get through today.

My daughter came home from school yesterday and didn't speak a word to me. I fell asleep on the sofa cause I was sooo tired. She got on the computer and without her knowledge, I had blocked my space from our computer. She got upset and went to her room. She came out around 6:30 or 7pm and got in the shower. She finally came and sat down to watch tv with me but I didn't speak to her. She finally started speaking to me and she started telling me about how church went. I didn't bring up the topic of her little boyfriend cuz I was still upset about and I felt I would probably not approach the subject properly.

I didn't eat dinner yesterday since I was so tired I just wanted to go to sleep!!! I won't make that mistake again.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix & Splenda, 12 oz. black coffee, 1 Starbucks venti bold w/cream & Splenda
L: South Beach Living Kung Pao chicken and 1 red apple
D: 1 Healthy Harvest Granny Smith applesauce w/cinnamon & stevia, 1 cup wulong tea, 1 demitasse spoonful of PB

Jennay, yes still crossing my fingers and all with the mobile home and my daughter!! I did notice the sodium content and that's why I said to myself that I shouldn't have had it twice in one day. I'm doing my protein weekend so we'll see how that turns out, Luv ya!!!

Monica, I hear ya on the cost of those suckas, but you don't need to eat that many to feel full. I found them at Costco in a huge container for about 12 bucks, so that should take care of me on my next P3 for a good long time, haaa!! At least till I figure out how to make macadamian crust for a sugarless cheesecake!!! Thanks for stopping by!!!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

R3P2D46 Stress City

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 46
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #12
R2 LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 162.4
Today's Wt: 162.6
0.2 lbs GAIN

(I added the BMI indicator to my ticker and according to that number I am still obese, boo hoo!!)

For some unknown reason, yesterday they guys were constantly complimenting me and I didn't dress any different from any other day except that I wore heels. Apparently I looked like I was dressed up but I have worn that outfit before just not with those shoes. An officer that I flirt with came in and said, "Whaz up sexy?!!" That just floored me. Since I'm not used to getting compliments, I quickly brushed it off since it was from him. I never know if he's serious or just messing with me. It did make me feel good though.

After work I went to meet up with the lady that is interested in purchasing the mobile home. She made me an offer, it wasn't was I was asking for, but at this point, I just want it paid off and taken off my name. So I have a bit more work to be done. Let me just say that that poor home is destroyed and if she's willing to pay me what she says, then I'll take it!! Just get it out of my hair!!

I got home and remembered that my daughter was going to go to "church" with some friends of hers but when she got home after 9:30pm, I have a feeling "church" didn't actually mean church. She came in and dropped off her stuff and went back outside without permission. So I started looking out the window and couldn't see "them". I finally opened the door and told her to come inside, she became defiant and my angry mom voice came through as I told her to come inside. Come on, its a school night and what I says goes, right? She finally came in and I saw "him" walking away. She's lucky she came in when she did because I was about to yell at "him" to go home!! Needless to say, I tried to go to sleep and I couldn't because I was so worked up already. I think it was finally 11:00pm when I was finally able to get to sleep and I had to drag outta bed at 3:30am. So here I am, dragging at work.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/Mocha Mix & Splenda, 2 12 oz. black coffee, 2 starbursts candies
L: 1 red apple, Lean Cuisine chicken alfredo (250 cals)
D: Michelina's Lean Gourmet chicken alfredo florentine w/added frozen spinach, 1 red apple, 1 cup wulong tea

My tiny gain is probably due to lack of sleep and having the same meal twice in one day. I should have stuck to plain protein for dinner but I did get home kinda late from showing the mobile home and I just grabbed the most convenient item. Also my feet hurt a little from wearing the heels, just a bit sore so water retention maybe?

Miss Lili, I removed the warning, so you can now read to your hearts content, ha!! Girl, you've been MIA for tooo long, catch us up!!! Glad to see your back and doing great.

Jennay, I think those vibes are helping but keep them coming till the deal is done, K? Man, I can almost taste it but with the stress I'm having today and had yesterday, it's not helping.

Becca, thanks, I finally got around to creating it. Keep those good vibes coming, I really need them!!

Hope everyone one has a pleasant Thursday!!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

R3P2D45 My Prayers May Have Been Answered

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 45
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #11
R2 LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 163.0
Today's Wt: 162.4
0.6 lbs LOST

I finally got around to getting my ticker, whoo hoo!!! It took me a while since I'm so computer savvy but I think I got it and I got it somewhat match my template!!

I did stray a bit yesterday along with my experiment but I still had a loss so that's good. I got a call yesterday from a former co-worker from about 5 years ago. Now after she called I pieced it all together. She said she remembered me by hearing an old saying I used to say. I used to imitate Cheri Oteri from SNL saying "simma down now". She would not stop laughing everytime I said it. This call was so unexpected but we chatted and caught up on each other's lives. The boyfriend she had at the time we worked together had passed away a few years ago but I remembered he had a business. I asked her what had happened to the business and she said it was still being run and currently the new owners were trying to keep it going. Ready for the kicker? This business is run by buying and selling mobile homes!!!! So I gently brought it up about my current situation and she said she would put me in touch with the ladies that are running the business right now. About an hour after we spoke, one of the ladies called me that she wanted to see the mobile home. So after work we are to go see the home and I pray that they are interested in purchasing it from me. So for everyone reading, I need some positive vibes so this thorn will be removed from my side!!! Now, since this phone call came out of the blue I really feel it was a God send. My father is always telling me not to let things get to me and just to put in God's hands and he will take care of it. So that's exactly what I had done and voila, this phone call. So I am crossing my fingers and eyes and anything else I can cross that this deal will go through!! Again, I ask everyone to send good vibes and pray for me.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/half & half and Splenda, 5 Brazil nuts and 5 starbursts candies
L: South Beach Living frozen dinner of Kung Pao chicken w/broccoli and water chestnuts (250 cals)
D: 1 tilapia fillet fried in coconut oil seasoned with Citrus Grill

I need to stop going to the commander's office but that's where the water cooler was placed because officers that don't pay, go and drink our water!! Anyway, to get to the water cooler, I have to pass the secretary's desk and she always has candies and nuts. Since I ate all the brazil nuts from the jar, I am not interested in any of the other nuts but the candy, I need to stop looking in that candy dish!!!

Jennay, yes enter at your own risk cause somedays Mary's on a rampage and what I have to say, may not be pretty, haaa!! I'm so close that yes I can taste it!!! That P3 blog by Cleo is frickin' hilarious, I think you'll enjoy the recipes as well as her humor!! I need my daily dose of Jennay and when I don't hear from you, I feel neglected and alone!!! Luv Ya!!

Becca, I found out that my battery lasted a little over 7 years so I really got my money's worth on that battery and that it lasted a lot longer than it should have. Yes, the heat here also kills the batteries from what I understand!!

CB, yes, I finally got around to getting my ticker!! How the heck are ya CB?!! Thanks for the shoutout!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

R3P2D44 I Amaze Myself Sometimes

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 44
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #10
R2 LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 164.0
Today's Wt: 163.0
1.0 lbs LOST

Since I got to play hooky from work yesterday, it wasn't a very pleasant day off. I went to the car shop and their battery checking machine was down. I asked them to check the warranty on the battery and they told me it still had a couple of months left on it. So I drove to one of their other locations and they were able to check the battery but they told me the warranty was expired since October 2007. So I went back to the first location and explained that I was misinformed and what were they going to do about and they wouldn't budge. I had to buy a new battery and ask for a discount since they didn't offer it to me!! Well, as he rang me up he conveniently forgot to give me the discount. I asked and he gave me the cash. I didn't let it get to me but financially, this is going to hurt!!! Things are tight right now and that mobile home is still a thorn in my side. I'm going to call the realtor that helped me purchase my home and see if she can help me with this. Doesn't hurt to ask, right? I didn't let anything get to me yesterday because I was wearing my size 12 NYJeans and flaunting it!!! Oh yea, they were a good fit and didn't ride up or down on me, I was almost tempted to drive to work to show myself off but decided it wasn't worth the drive, so the guys will have to wait until the end of the month when we are allowed to wear jeans on the last Friday of the month!! Hopefully by then there will be less of me!!

Geee, lookie there, this is a total shock to me. I wasn't expecting a loss but there it is. Today will be a Marlene experiment for me so I will let you know what it is tomorrow.

I've been experimenting with................coconut oil and the results have been very good!!! I have been cooking my omelets for the last 3 days with coconut oil and yesterday for both my meals and so far I have not had a negative effect. Please don't try this at home, ha, ha!!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 2-12 oz. coffee with half & half and Splenda (oops, had half and half twice, over limit)
L: eggbeaters (3/4 c.) London Broil and mushroom omelet cooked in coconut oil
D: 2 tilapia fillets fried in coconut oil and seasoned w/cajun (creole style??)

Jennay, I've missed you, I felt so neglected and alone without you!!! Since you've attained your goal, I feel as if you are going to leave Protocoland and all its residents behind. I know Ed is still here with us but soon he will leave too!!! Yes, I'm the type of person that says "do as I say, not as I do", haa!!

Becca, yes, sorry I updated my settings for adult content in case someone stumbles across my blog and feels offended by my postings, so its just a heads up for when I'm going off on someone or something and feel the need to use cuss words and such, that's the only reason. Oh, I can only pray that I catch up to by the time this round is over!!!

Monday, March 10, 2008

R3P2D43 Whaz Goin' On???

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 43
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #9
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 165.2
Today's Wt: 164.0
1.2 lbs LOST

Ok, so I am trying to play hooky today since my car won't start again. I need to get the battery checked so I will try to do that later this morning. If it's not my battery then I don't know what I am going to do!!

Yesterday was a restful day and even though I didn't give myself an injection, I actually wasn't hungry. I told myself not to cheat or help myself to extra portions because I knew I would have to weigh in early today. I'll consider Saturday's my cheat day from now on so I have time to correct it later. Yeah right!!

Anyway even though my car won't start today I am feeling pretty happy right now. I'll probably buy some suspension days or my evaluation will not be so great but right now I don't care. I had such a bad weekend that I deserve to have today to myself.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 16 oz. coffee with half & half and Splenda, 16 oz. black coffee w/choco raspberry stevia
L: eggbeaters (3/4 cup), London Broil and mushroom (2) omelet cooked in coconut oil w/homemade salsa
D: 2 creole tilapia filets w/lemon and 1 cup wulong tea

I didn't drink much water on Saturday but I did have plenty on Sunday.

Can we have a shoutout for Jenny!!! She reached her goal!!! Yea!!!!!
A well deserved round of applause is called for!!!
Whoo hoo you go girl!!! Go on wit cha bad self!!
Thanks for being the poster child and proving that this protocol works and will work for all of us!!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

R3P2D42 Another Rough Morning

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 42
No Injection
LIWR2: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 165.2
Today's Wt: 165.2
0.0 lbs LOST

I'm going to start out by answering Monica's comment: I realized that letting the little things get to me is a waste of time and effort. So this morning I was just going to run out and get the paper and guess what? My car won't start. How's that for karma. Since I had such a rough start yesterday, someone upstairs just doesn't want me to go out today at all!!! I know it's the battery and my father came over a few weeks ago and we put water in it and now it's just not wanting to start again. This is not good cuz if I need a new battery, money is very tight right now because I just paid my car insurance for the year and that took a big bit outta my pocketbook and I still haven't sent in my mortgage payment. Maybe something is telling me not to go by the paper and look at the specials because I will have no money this week, haaa!! I can't count on those rebate checks being sent out in May because I saw a chart somewhere that showed that the last 2 digits of your social will determine when the checks will be mailed out and mine won't be mailed out till the end of August!!

All that wasn't for you Monica just the first couple of lines, sorry!!

Well, I experimented a bit yesterday and I won't do that again!! Luckily I didn't have a gain because of it and this time change sucks the big one!!! I won't adjust to it until we change back, arrrgh!! I don't feel swollen today, sometimes I wake up and my fingers are swollen but today they are not cuz my ring is just floating around there under my knuckle, that's a good sign right?

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/milk & Splenda
L: egg beaters (1 cup) and mushrooms (3) omelet cooked in coconut oil w/jalapeno,tomatillo, garlic salsa(homemade)
D: grilled London Broil and a grilled portobello mushroom
S: 3 oreos (not all at the same time) and a few chips

I should have had a beer yesterday, so today I will have to make up for that!!!

Monica, please don't feel that I went off on you or anything, but I have been trying to keep a positive energy around me and for some reason, the negativity keeps sticking to me. I am trying to read the Secret and learn from it but I don't think I'm getting it at all but I am trying!!

Biz, thanks, but there are those days that seem that everything is just going wrong and to start my morning off like that, was just not right. I tried to figure what I was doing to deserve this but I left the house in a great mood and jamming to a great song and then wham!! all this crap started to happen to me. Oh well, we have days like that I guess. I can't say today is new day cuz this day already started out on the wrong foot, arrrgh.

Hope everyone has a great Spring Forward Sunday!!!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

R3P2D41 Rough Morning

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 41
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #8
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 165.4
Today's Wt: 165.2
0.2 lbs LOST

I got up early this morning to go to Wal*Mart to get my daughter her favorite frozen dinners. As I'm driving out of the garage, Madonna comes on the radio and I am groovin'. On my way there, this idiot decides that he needs to get between me and the car in front of me, whatever. Well, he proceeds to continue doing this and it is irritating the crap outta me!! I finally got behind him and turned into a parking lot that gets to Wally world. I thought I saw them turn into the Wal*Mart entrance but I don't think they did. So I'm shopping and getting everything I need then I go to check out and there is only one cashier, the other one was closed already. I'm now the third person in line and the people in front of me have a full cart, errrgh!!! Finally, when the cashier gets to me, 2 other cashiers show up, errrrgh!!! So I leave there and head to Albertson's for London Broil that's on sale. Again, someone else decides that they can not wait for me so they cut in front of me, twice, arrrgh!!! I get what I need and leave. I am so close to my house and again, someone can not wait for me to pass that they run the stop sign, this time I flipped them off!!! What is the deal? It's early in the morning, there's hardly any traffic but everyone's in a hurry, drives me insane!!! So I started out in a good mood, slept good and now I'm just aggravated.

Anyway, the weather is supposed to behave today so we'll see. I did make some poor choices yesterday so we'll just have to see how today plays out.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12 oz. coffee w/milk & Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: water packed tuna, drained w/mustard and a few dill pickles, water
D: 2 skinless rotisserie chicken thighs, salsa, chips (don't ask), and 2 Michelob Ultras
2 cups wulong tea and 1 cup spearmint tea

I think after having the beers I got the munchies since the chicken didn't fill me up so that's why I had the chips, Doritos and Lay's chips.

Hey Miz Biz, thanks for the encouraging words, guess I should have read them before I ate dinner and had those beers, haaa!!

Jennay, ditto to what I said to Biz, since I sabotaged myself again last night!! You are absolutely right, I do deserve this but for some reason, in the back of my mind, I seem to be afraid or something. I haven't quite figured out what is wrong with me.

Everyone have a great day and I am off to have some coffee and try to relax.

Friday, March 7, 2008

R3P2D40 A Gold Star Deserved

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 40
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #7
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 167.8
Today's Wt: 165.4
2.4 lbs LOST

I behaved yesterday and I was rewarded. I got home from work and really started thinking about why I was sabotaging myself. Am I afraid to be thin? I see myself thin, healthy and showing off my new body but for some reason, I can't stay in the game. I was very good yesterday after thinking about this and looking at the jeans I bought, I will stay on the straight and narrow. Not much else happened yesterday.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 120z. coffee w/milk & Splenda, 1 Starbucks venti Bold w/cream and Splenda
L: homemade chicken Caesar salad w/croutons and parm cheese
D: whole skinless rotisserie chicken breast w/homemade jalapeno tomatillo salsa

Dawn, well hello, nice to meet a lurker!! Thank you for the kind words of encouragement. I know I'm not alone and it does feel that way sometimes but I just cave into temptation. I need to work on getting around the new forum, slowly but surely.

Becca, yes I'm still misbehaving. I figure since I'm eating empty calories, they just don't count, ha!! I don't think it has anything to do with age, I think if I just avoid starchy starches such as corn, in any form and flour, I'm okay cuz the potato chips don't seem to affect me, but that's just my thinking. Yes, that reminds me of what Goodwill's sign says, "It's not a hand-out, it's a hand-up!!", that made total sense to me. I'm working on the pics it's just that their on my home computer and I usually update my blog at work (bad, bad girl).

Marlene, yes, I will be using those jeans for my motivation from here on out. I'm trying to incorporate your method of staying at or under 500 calories, he, he!!

Biz, I don't know what is happening but I can only imagine how much better I would be doing if I just behaved!! I do indulge in my treats but at least its not the whole bag, just a handful or so. I'm still trying to figure my way around there so please be patient with me, remember I have adult ADHD when it comes to computers and typing, doh!!

Jennay, how the heck are ya!! I'm still trying to figure my way around there so this weekend I will devote some more time to it, it's just hard here at work!! I don't know if my daughter will help me take the pics, I don't want her to know I bought a new digital camera cuz she wants one for her birthday and I am NOT going to give it to her!!! She loses everything!!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

R3P2D39 Fell Off Again!!

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 39
0.9ml (150iu) HCG IM Injection #6
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 168.6
Today's Wt: 167.8
0.8 lbs LOST

It looks like I can't get back on that wagon to Protocoland. I strayed again yesterday. I upped my dose a bit this morning and I took my multi-vitamin Green Source this morning. I'm taking a supplement called Fucothin. It is pure seaweed extract and it is suppose to boost your metabolism. Guess I'll find out if it works or not. Anyway, I got home yesterday and had my dinner then my daughter got home and made popcorn. At first she hid the bag from me which I was very proud of her but then she went to heat something up in the micro and left the bag out. So I took a few and ended up eating about a handful. I drank some wu long tea and that finally helped calm me down.

I went to Big Lots cuz I was going to go crazy and buy everything from their ad but after I got there, I thought do I really need all this? NO!! So I walked out and went next door to Goodwill. I found a pair of jeans in size 12 and tried them on. I could get them on but not zip them. I looked at their sign and everything with a green tag was 50% off, so back to rack I went. I found a pair Rockies but they were too long. I found some Levi 550 and a pair of NY Jeans. One of these had a green tag!!! I found some chinese spoons and an English/Spanish 2004 book. I got out of there paying a whole $10.55!! I got home and tried the jeans on again since when I tried them on there, my bladder was full and was difficult. I got one pair on and zip them and my butt actually looked cute!!! My hips have been so huge that they would take over any pair that I would wear so I never wore them again, but now I can. That should be my motivation to get both pair on!! I told my daughter and she was shocked that I had actually gone in there!! I told her it's not like there's paparazzi following me and snapping my picture going in and out of there!! No one has to know that where I bought my jeans, right? I'm glad I didn't buy her any!!!

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12oz. coffee w/milk & Splenda, 2-12oz. black coffee
L: Wendy's single 1/4 lb. burger without the top bun, no mayo, no ketchup and no cheese, extra mustard and a chicken Caesar salad as well.
D: 1 water packed can of tuna, drained, w/mustard, garlic powder, cajun seasoning and pepper w/Lay's Wavy potato chips
S: handful of popcorn, Movie Theatre butter no less, 2 cups wu-long tea w/stevia

Biz, yes I have been eating junk and still losing, ha!! It'll catch up to me soon, don't worry. Yes, I try and take tips from Jen & Ed as well as Marlene, check out her blog when you have a chance.

Marlene, I want to see the DVD as well, not sure if I can apply it to myself yet but I am trying to read it. Maybe a combo of the book and HCG will help!!

Jennay, yes, I am trying to read it. Ha, I do okay with potato chips but not with bread, I quickly gain if I cheat with bread!! I eat the salad dry, they are nice enough to put parm cheese on it and I throw on the croutons. I've gotten used it without the dressing and its not so bad!! Not interested in the UPS man, he's very nice and polite but not my type. I think he's just nice because he screwed up my package from research supplies and sent it back without giving me a chance to pick it up from them, etc, etc.

CB, as I explained to Jen, I think he just kisses my ass because I called to complain when they screwed up!! I already took a break for that reason but as soon as this bottle is over (mustn't waste HCG) I will take a long break but it just saddens me because summer is just around the corner. That should start motivating me eh?

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

R3P2D38 Falling Off the Wagon

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 38
0.75ml (125iu) HCG IM Injection #5
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 169.4
Today's Wt: 168.6
0.8 lbs LOST

Ok, ok, I was bad again yesterday but I tried to stay under 500 calories but I may have gone over a bit. I drank lots of water, must have been over a gallon cuz I kept refilling my 32oz glass at work, I lost count after 4 and I still drank more when I got home. After work I went to vote and came home to wait for the man in brown, UPS man!! Good thing I have a regular guy who knows me and what time I'm home so he doesn't have to leave me a note. But that could be a bad thing too if he knows what time I'm home and such but anyway, I told him I would see him on Monday. I have another order coming in. So I finished eating at around 3pm which is also the time the UPS man showed up. I finally received my supplements and the book I won on eBay, The Secret. I didn't get to read much but I am trying. I thought about bringing it to work but I wouldn't have time and if I get caught reading it, everyone will wonder why I have so much time to read and not do my work, blah blah blah.

My daughter had told me on Monday night that the students were planning a walk out for Thursday to protest the new school block schedule. It was a very controversial subject since students, faculty, or parents were allowed to give any imput, the school district was just going to implement it. So she told me yesterday that the school district changed their mind since they heard about the walk out. A few years ago the school district tried to do something similar and there was an actual riot at Montwood High School.

On Saturday after posting about all the drama, I forgot to mention that as soon as I took my injection, my hunger ceased. It didn't stop me from eating but it did feel weird almost like an addict getting a hit after a while.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 120z. coffee w/Splenda & milk, 2-12oz. black coffee, lots of water over a gallon!!
L: Wendy's chicken Caesar salad w/o dressing, w/croutons (190 cals???)
D: spinach chile con queso w/Doritos and Lay's Wavy potato chips

Marlene, thanks for the tips I will definitely look into those ice creams!!! The skinny cow sandwiches have 140 cals so I figured it was okay. At least in my mind it was okay.

Jennay, oh my lip is much better now, I think the cold from the ice cream, that I wouldn't stop eating afterwards, helped keep the swelling down. I think I am definitely going to try Marlene's approach and try some Lean Cuisine meals, like the pannini fiasco I had during one of my rounds. Yes, I agree now that you hit the teens I would experiment just yet, let Ed do that, he, he!!! Let's see if I can start behaving again and stick to the protocol.

Monica, ahhh, yes the donut drama, been there done that, I actually lost a pound the day I had that donut, go figure!!

Becca, yes the joy of working for civil service, drama, drama and more drama!!! I'm not off to good start yet so I need to buckle down!! I'll try and catch up now!!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

R3P2D37 More Energy Today

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 37
0.75ml (125iu) HCG IM Injection #4
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 171.8
Today's Wt: 169.4
2.4 lbs LOST

I was so tired all day yesterday that I made poor choices in eating. First mistake, I didn't bring my lunch so I got something from the vending machine. After I got home, I did better but then started munching on chips cause my daughter was taking forever to get home. I tried to stay under or at 500 calories if I counted correctly. I had fallen asleep at around 3:30 for about an hour. I felt a bit better but I didn't feel like doing anything. I only got to bring in my flowers and cleaned the cat box (fun). I'm awaiting the UPS man to bring some supplements I had ordered last week, they should be in today. I was hoping they would have arrived yesterday but no luck.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: 12oz. coffee w/Splenda and milk, 2-120z. black coffee
L: Hot Pockets meatball and cheese hot sub (280 cals)
D: skinless rotisserie chicken breast (94 cals) w/jalapeno tomatillo salsa
S: Skinny Cow choco ice cream sandwich (140 cals), a handful of Doritos and Lays Wavy chips

Jennay, thanks for the well wishes, I finally did get some sleep a nap and I went to bed early. Good thing I planted them in pots so I could bring them in. It won't be windy again til later in the week so let's see how that goes!!

Biz, well hello stranger!! Not really, I hope you're having a great time in Cali with your sista, that's what's more important!! I took a break for about a week but man, it felt a lot longer. I did make some poor choices and I still am, but alls better now.

Monday, March 3, 2008

R3P2D36 VCLD Begins Today

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 36
0.75ml (125iu) HCG IM Injection #3
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 170.0
Today's Wt: 171.8
1.8 lbs GAIN

The gain is due to the early morning weigh in and lack of sleep. I came to work today so I had to weigh myself at 3:30am, so tomorrow's weigh in should be a LOT less. I didn't sleep very well because of the high winds and cold front, so I am dragging today. I'm upset about this cold front because on Thursday, I bought packs of pansies from Home Depot and potted them yesterday. Many of them broke off because of the high winds. I brought the rest inside because I had no more pots to pot them in. I need to dig up this desert plant that I just planted to I can take the babies off and replant those elsewhere.

Yesterday's menu was a repeat of Saturday's, so it was all good.
B: Breakfast griddle sandwich (sausage, egg, cheese and pancake) coffee
L: 2 orders of Chico's Tacos (since my daughter didn't eat them)
S: 1 Blue Bunny Bunny tracks personal ice cream
D: chuck steak with 2 avocados, jalapeno tomatillo salsa, zucchini & cheese soup, 1 Betty Crocker hot fudge brownie w/added walnuts and a glass of milk

Jennay, I bit myself because the ice cream had chunks of brownies in them and I was trying to talk at the same time. As you can tell I did get some more goodies in yesterday and now they are pretty much gone, phew!! Yes, I want TOM to be gone!!

CB9094, hey CB, glad to hear your doing well and thanks for checking in on me!!!

Monica, yes ice cream was my weakness this break thanks to TOM (I like blaming him for everything that goes wrong with me, he, he!!) You seem to be doing pretty well yourself girl!!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

R3P2D35 Freedom's Almost Over

Round 3 of Phase 2 VCLD Day 35
0.75ml (125iu) HCG IM Injection #2
LIW: 168.2
Yesterday's Wt: 171.8
Today's Wt: 170.0
1.8 lbs LOST

Yesterday was pretty laid back. I ate freely yesterday since the HCG is not built up in my system yet. I did have a lot of ice cream or at least it was a lot for me. My daughter kept telling me to stop eating and I tried to explain to her about the first 2 shots not really doing anything and she said I was just making excuses. I tried to pull a few weeds from the front yard even though I have desert landscaping those suckas still found a way to grow. There were so many dogs running loose I was starting to get aggravated. The neighbor that used to live next door before selling the house, came by to visit some neighbors. The man was very irritating when he lived next door. He was a great mechanic but he played his music so loud that my windows would rattle. This was a daily occurrence not once in a while, daily. I was so thrilled when they finally sold the home but now I have to contend with these morons. My other next door neighbors don't bother me as much, they play their music loud once in a while but not daily.

Guess who came to visit me at 4am this morning?? You got it, TOM that bastard. Just like a man to show up unannounced and at an inconvenient time and just as I had predicted as soon as I started injections again.

Yesterday's Menu:
B: bacon and scrambled eggs with homemade jalapeno and tomatillo salsa, coffee
L: Blue Bunny banana split personal ice cream and a Skinny Cow chocolate ice cream sandwich
D: grilled chuck steak w/avocado and more salsa, zucchini & cheese soup
S: Betty Crocker hot fudge brownie with added walnuts and a glass of milk

Trysomethingnew, thanks for stopping by, I know you're very busy with school and I really enjoy reading your updates, very interesting about the protein bars. I'm not sweating this weeks gain, I am so over it and mentally ready to start P2 grazing again.

Jennay, you must have had a great time yesterday, glad you did, you deserve it, girl!!!